P A R T Y P E O P L E || N M

0.31

-Sorry i had a lil problem
lol but im back-

This is so wrong. So so wrong.

I looked over at the empty bed as I put my pants on and grabbed my shirt off the floor.

I scattered around looking for my keys, finding them under her bed.

I ran downstairs and out the door.

What am I doing? What the fuck am I doing?

Im messing up such a good life I've always wanted with the person I love.
I need to quit this shit man.

But she don't know.

She doesn't know yet and I don't plan on telling her.

What she doesnt know won't hurt her. If I just apologize for yesterday, it'll be all good.

I started my car speeding down the street cautiously.

I drove to her house knocking on the door waiting for a response.

Nothing. Smh.

I decided on just texting her

*hey look I'm really sorry maybe we can go out again soon*

I sent hoping that would cover my tracks.

I need to go to a hospital, this condition has gotten worse. I can tell.

I'm hoping I don't hurt her. But I can't avoid what I feel and what I'm doing.

I ran my hands through my hair gripping my roots.
I screamed out loud in frustration.

'I've wanted this life style since I got into rap but it's not playing out how I want it to.'

'I fall too deep into temptation and listen to bullshit , where's my concentration. All these females want is money. They see me going places and want what I have but I'm telling you I'm not gonna waste it. '

I got up and walked to my car, slipping into the drivers seat, I drove off.

'This too much shit to handle on the daily, not breaks this shit is crazy.'

All the shit running threw my head, never enough time to think, can't believe I'm not dead.

'I worry too much about the ladies never about myself these bitches not gon' pay me.'

I sighed myself mentally writing all these lyrics in my head.

I sighed as I thought more about this.

'I'm just gonna keep it to myself no body needs to know, I'm good at keeping secrets this shit ain't gonna show'

I got my pen and paper out my pocket continuing to write down rhymes this is the only way to clear my mind.

I guess, I'll tell her sooner or later I guess she's gotta know but really it's a secret I'm not willing to show.

-pay attention to this part really close I haven't used names for a reason but oh I got bars see them lil raps I made up lmao next update soon guys-