The Night We Met

Chapter 26: Jace

Waking up this morning I had no idea where I was I just knew that it wasn't my house and I wasn't in my bed. I was in Aspen's room but how did I get here all I can remember is getting in my car after that is a complete blur. As I look over I see Aspen asleep on the huge white beanbag in the corner of her room. I tried to get up as quietly as possible to keep from waking her but as I stood up I realized that I didn't have any clothes on. Where were my clothes?  "Good morning," Aspen said sitting up on the beanbag. 

"Hey, I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you I was just trying to find my clothes, umm where are my clothes exactly, and why are they off?" She got up and made her way to the bathroom without answering my question. 

"Aspen, hello where are my clothes?" I rushed to the bathroom after her just before saying anything she turned me towards the mirror gesturing at the huge bandage on my forehead. 

"What, how did that get there ?" 

"Well you were drunk and you fainted hitting your head on my floor just after you vomited all over your clothes that I had to wash by the way." She threw a towel at me and walked out of the bathroom. I had no idea what she was talking about I was still out of it. She sat on her bed with her arms crossed staring at me. "What,...did I do something else. "You know you could have killed someone or killed yourself, why would you drink and drive in the first place, Jace."  I couldn't tell her because I felt like an asshole and I wanted to apologize to her, so I just stayed quiet. She scanned my face for an explanation as I just stood there like a dumb ass. 

"Wouldn't the second choice be the better option for everyone" She looked at me with tears in her eyes I know that I had fucked up I just didn't know how to fix it. "Why would you say that?" She got up from the bed and walked towards me reaching her small hands out to my face and I walked away. "Where are my clothes, Aspen?"I asked again trying to hide my emotions once again walking out of her room and down the stairs to the laundry room. "Jace I'm talking to you, JACE" she yelled at me gently grabbing my shoulder and turning me towards her. I didn't want to give a fucking reason as to why I felt the way I did but I did. My whole life I've been a fucking disappointed and the last thing I ever wanted to do was disappoint her. But she didn't know that and I planned to keep it that way.

"Are you going to talk to me? or keep quiet?"

"WHAT, WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY ASPEN?" I HAVE NOTHING I'M EMPTY OKAY THERE'S NOTHING THERE I'M NUMB." I grabbed her hands looking into her eyes seeing the hurt that I had caused her killed me but I never knew how to deal with my feelings why would I start with her's?  

"Just talk to me let me help you," she looked at me with sympathy. The last fucking thing that I needed was a fucking pity party.  

"We're not together and we will never be so stop trying to fucking fix me and mold me into the person you want me to be, I could never be that person for you."