The Night We Met

Chapter 21: Jace

It's been two days since I have seen Aspen and my mind just continues to wander back to that night how after we just laid on the couch and talked. Having her in my arms that whole night made me feel,....human for once and not some monster who doesn't know how to connect with his feelings, that night was the first night I let anyone that close to me. Just those few little hours spent with her I knew how I felt and who I wanted to be but could one girl change that for me in just the 24 hours we were together? 

"Jace..dude you with me" Journey snapped his fingers and waved his red hand in the front of my face. 

"Yeah... I was thinking," 

"Thinking about what,....or should I say who" I couldn't do anything but roll my eyes and shake my head. Journey knew that I was falling for Aspen I mean how couldn't he know she was the only person I had been talking about for the past two days. Asking him how she feels about me, whether she likes me or not. I asked Journey about her so much that he knew all of the questions before I even asked them. 

"It looks like your thought just walked through the door." Journey nodded his head towards the huge glass library doors and as I looked over there she was. I wanted to go up and talk to her but I didn't know what to say,...well, I guess I could have asked her why she didn't text me in two days. Did our little kitchen scene mean nothing to her? "I'll be right back" I quickly get up and make my way towards Aspen take her arm and walk her to the back of the library.

"Woah, what is going on Jace," she said trying to fix her jacket on her shoulder. 

"So were you just not going to text me, I had to wait to see you at school to talk to you?" I snapped at her. 

"What are you talking about, I was going--," 

"You what,...so I just tell you shit that I have never told anyone before and you blow me off, if that's the games we're playing here I promise you I'm better at it." 

"Jace where is all of this coming from,?" she grabbed my arm right before I walked away. 

"Is that what you think we are,?" she looked at me confused and there was no reason for her to be confused she knew damn what she was doing. So I said nothing and just looked out of the window.  "you know what,...I'm leaving" She started to walk off but I couldn't let her go knowing that she was upset. 

"No, wait," I tried grabbing her arm but she gently pulled away and walked out for the library.  I knew I had messed up but I don't know how to contain my anger when it comes to shit like this. I like her I mean a fucking blind person can see that but I just didn't know how to go about it I never let my feelings show and now that I had to the only way I know how to show that I care is through anger.  

"What happened, she looked pissed" Journey whispered as I sat down at the table I couldn't do or say anything I just rubbed my hands through my hair. 

"I yelled at her for not texting me for two days and she got mad and stormed off" I explained while covering my mouth with my hands. 

"Dude well did you let her explain why she didn't text you." Journey sat back in his chair and shook his head. Why the fuck was he shaking his head? 

"No,..why" 

"Because dumb ass, her phone broke and she just got it fixed,.."  I couldn't do anything but put my head down on the table and groan. What the hell is wrong with me, why didn't I just let her explain?