Everyone’s a letdown
I didn’t expect you to fall into that abyss of idiocy. I didn’t expect you to slip down to this level. But you did. I should’ve expected it. Nobody can be trusted. Nobody can be set so highly on a pinnacle and stay there for eternity. Eventually they have to fall; you just plummeted faster than expected. And you definitely made sure you hit with a bang.
Just like you planned from the start.
It just depends on how far down they can go
From being so heightened in confidence and self belief, the trip down would have seemed less of a plunge to the bottom, more of a gracious float with other’s grasping at your hands to save a last smidgen of your perfect being. They didn’t really care about what you actually did, they just wanted a sprinkle of that dust you dropped with each step. Nobody really cared.
Neither did you.
In every circle of friends there’s a whore
You were always the one who I thought would be grounded. With your flighty, airy mind, I thought maybe I’d be the one to ground you and keep you close. Maybe Niall’s drinking habits would make him whore out a bit, but never you. Your sensitive side was too prominent when you were with me. But only when you were with me.
It’s disgusting.
The one who flirts
It didn’t start off with much. Just a gentle tickle of the random strangers cheeks with a blush from the flirty comment. It wasn’t major. It hurt a little, a small pang in my heart, but I let it pass.
I was too easy on you.
And does a little more
Then you came home one night and it all changed. I wanted to make love with you, but you said no. I tried my hardest to seduce you, as such. But you just rattled away. I saw it. When I slipped into bed next to you later on. You didn’t have a scarf to cover it then, it was just your bare skin. That purple bruise latching on the tanned skin. You were fast asleep though, you didn’t know I saw it. You still don’t.
Well, I guess you do now.
But who’s to say?
I never mentioned it though, what was the use? You wouldn’t have confessed. You’d have kissed your way through it.
I’d have let it melt away as I always did.
This is a social scene anyway
Everything you did was there. Right in front of everyone’s faces. Never behind someone’s back; just right in front. Sly. That’s what you were. You didn’t realise I noticed what you were doing. Your soft voice didn’t fool me. Those hazel orbs didn’t hide your desperation and how you fed on attention. You were an exhibitionist.
Why didn’t I realise that before?
And everybody wants to explore the new girl
As soon as he arrived, I noticed your demeanour change. He was new. Louis Tomlinson. Fresh meat.
A brand new me.
But more interesting.
But less you.
Caught up in her own hard liquor world
He wasn’t the same as you. You thought he was. But he really wasn’t. Although he seemed like a wild storm, he was a calm tornado on the inside; swirling around lightly and causing no damage at all. He actually cared for people; not like you. He was oblivious.
