that once just vape
my mom would call it a gateway
to the bong
and the long
nights we spent on your roof
just thinking about stars
and cars
and where we'd go
once the sun came up
and when it'd start to snow
falling out of trees
because your boyfriend took the ladder
i ripped my pants
but it really didn't matter
i stole a pair of yours
even though they didn't fit right
i bandaged your foot full of glass that night
we hot boxed your bathroom
talking about all the boys we once knew
giving them hickies
but he'd never kiss me
you'd die for him anyways
anyways
we were the greatest show
when we would party in your garage
pillow forts in couches falling apart
an homage
to the kids we used to be
but we were still kids
just barely fourteen
but we were just built that way
already giving up on dreams
falling into the patterns
of small town kids who deserved better
better days
better ways
to get over all the boredom
could have tried sports
but our parents couldn't afford em'
and we weren't good enough anyways
anyways
we made out just fine
only some of us do hard drugs
some of the time
only some of us cried about that night
only some of us stayed by your side
only some of us ruined each other's lives
some block of text in a caption
saying why
we don't talk anymore
and why it's time
and why everyone should know the truth
of our personal personalized lies
and why it's ok that we fell apart
because sometimes some of us need a brand new start
but you grieve for me anyways
anyways
YOU ARE READING
We All Grow Up
Poésiei started this collection of thoughts and feelings before i had really grown up. legally i'm supposed to be grown up now, but i'm still writing. i think it's going to be a long time before this collection feels complete, and i feel grown up.
