I feel sick
The snot running from my nose is thick
I'm carrying a hundred pounds worth of stress and my parents don't give a shit
I got major commitment issues and I need to get a grip
My anxiety and fear of failure never quit.
It's like a Im in a circle of responsibilities
But none of them matter to me
It's selfish she says
But I can't see the road ahead
Things just don't matter to me
I'm just being what my parents want me to be
The president, the star, the brains, the brawn
I pick up the weight of this expectation right at dawn
I take it all off at night as I lay in bed
I stay up late on Tumblr to keep it's haunting out of my head.
I work hard to keep up appearances
I learn from my friends experiences
Cause they got it so much worse than me
But they look weightless, they look goddamn free
But inside they carry more weight than I
So I can never let them see me cry
I have to be strong
For their sake I have to hold on
Just more faces
I just wanna run to far away places
Where I'm the one with problems
And people ask me if I'm alright
No more crying alone in my bed at night
No more stress of not gaining success
I just want it to be over I confess
Mother please I know you think it's best
But the pressure of your fears will never let me rest
I want to make my own decisions
Live for myself, just me
I don't want to be famous
I just want to make a difference
I just want to be free.
YOU ARE READING
We All Grow Up
Poesíai started this collection of thoughts and feelings before i had really grown up. legally i'm supposed to be grown up now, but i'm still writing. i think it's going to be a long time before this collection feels complete, and i feel grown up.
