i can't escape it
this role
i am no longer a girl
but i can never not be a big sister
it echoes in my mind
over and over
how i am losing them
how i'm failing them
and i'm losing them
my baby brother is no longer a baby
and he doesn't need me anymore
he doesn't want me anymore
and has been better without me
and my baby sister who is still very much a baby
but refuses to believe it
i had no time
no time to be there for her
before i abandoned them
before i left them in that house alone
it's over
and i can never be anything to them ever again
YOU ARE READING
We All Grow Up
Poesiai started this collection of thoughts and feelings before i had really grown up. legally i'm supposed to be grown up now, but i'm still writing. i think it's going to be a long time before this collection feels complete, and i feel grown up.
