• Today, l had so much fun with my bestfriends. We watched movies and we played cards. I love them so much, they are my happiness. I'm so thankful for having them in my life. I don't care about what other people says, for me they're real and they're important to me. I can't afford to lose them. I wish they will never leave me...I wish they will stay in my imaginations.
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Pagkatapos kong magsulat sa daily notes ko ay tinapos ko ang aking plates. First year college na ako, l took Bachelor of Architecture. As I was saying, l imagined things other people can't. Ang lawak ng imahinasyon ko pagdating sa ibang bagay. I'm on Dean's list, nangunguna pa. Elementary pa lang panlaban na ako sa mga contest. Nakaabot na nga ako ng National's eh, I got the first place but after that l quit joining contests. Kahit anong galing ko sa pagpinta at paggawa ng obra, parati pa ring nakikita ng mga tao ang kalagayan ko. At hindi ako kailanman magiging normal sa paningin nila.
After doing my actual plate, l took pictures of it then l posted it on my instagram.
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INSTAGRAM Tuesday, 9:27 PM
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17,569 Likes Akemi_IsabellaDeadlines are coming, pressure is real. Thankfully it's holiday today.
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I smiled when people likes it and they complimented me. Kilala ako sa social media dahil sa mga gawa ko. Hindi nila ako kilala sa totoong buhay kaya wala silang masabi sa akin. Pero alam kong 'pag nakilala na nila ang tunay na ako ay iiwas din sila sa akin gaya ng iba.
They keep avoiding me and it hurts inside...their painful words are stabbing me. It's suffocating.
I was about to sleep when my phone vibrated. Kumunot ang aking noo nang may magchat sa akin sa messenger na hindi ko kilala. Dalawang tao lang naman ang nakakausap ko sa messenger, si Hera at Yani lang.
I tried to erase him out of my mind, l'm afraid that it might be my imaginations again.
"Please get out of my mind, please give me a peace of mind." I was chanting but it did not work. Tuloy-tuloy ang chat na natanggap ko. Naiinis na binuksan ko ang messenger at tinignan kung sino ang nag chat.
MESSENGER
Rhys ArchieverEnriquez Tuesday, 9:40 PM
Rhys:
Hi! Ahm, I saw your plates on Instagram. Ang astig ah! Sa UST ka pala nag-aaral?
Architectural, right? What year are you now? Teka hulaan ko, third year college ka na noh?
Akemi:
Ang daldal mo po.
Sino ka ba?
Rhys:
Nasa itaas ang pangalan ko, hindi mo ba nakita?
Akemi:
Stupid. Afcourse l saw it. What l mean is who are you and why are you chatting me? I don't even know you in person.
'Wag kang feeling close!
Rhys:
29
Akemi:
29 What?
Stop playing shits with me Mr.Idontcarewhoyouare
Rhys:
Ang sungit mo alam mo ba 'yon? Pinaglihi ka ba sa sama ng loob?
I was just counting the words you replied. You're cold. Ang bait mo sa Insta pero sa Messenger hindi.
Bipolar.
Akemi:
Hoy lalaking ubod ng kadaldalan! I AM NOT A BIPOLAR PERSON!
I just don't feel like talking to you.
Rhys:
Oh kalma, mahina kalaban.
Hinga ka muna baka tumaas presyon mo.
Akemi:
F*ck you!
Rhys:
Hala bad words!
Minus ten ka sa langit.
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Sa sobrang inis ay blinock ko ang lalaking iyon sa messenger. Pero hindi siya tumigil dahil kinabukasan ay nag-chat na naman siya sa akin sa instagram.
I tried to erase him again in my mind. Natatakot ako na baka gawa-gawa na naman siya ng imahinasyon ko. Natatakot ako dahil ito ang unang beses na may estrangherong lalaki na kumausap sa akin.
Does he know who he's talking to? Hindi ba siya aware na may disorder ako?
