MESSENGER
Rhys Archiever Enriquez
Monday, 06:02 AM
[ Nickname: Rhys—boyfriend,
Akemi-baby japa (short for japanese) ]
Boyfriend:
Gising na love, may quizzes pa kayo ngayon.
Baby japa:
Mamayang eight pa naman 'yon, inaantok pa ako.
Gusto ko pa matulog.
Boyfriend:
Yeah and that's the reason why I don't want to have late night talks with you sometimes.
Napuyat na naman kita kagabi, ikaw kasi eh.
Baby japa:
Loh? Ba't ako?
Excuse me, you started the conversation.
Boyfriend:
But you don't want to end it. Who am l to refuse a beautiful lady?
Baby japa:
Hey! Are you saying that you can't refuse other beautiful ladies also?
Umayos ka Rhys kung ayaw mong mawalan ng kaibigan
Boyfriend:
Nah, of course not.
I'm only referring to you, okay.
Itigil mo 'yang pagiging selosa mo dahil ikaw lang mahal, wala nang iba.
Baby japa:
Aba dapat lang. Kasi ang ayaw ko sa lahat 'yung niloloko ako.
Boyfriend:
Magsinungaling nga sa'yo hindi ko magawa, magloko pa kaya.
Baby japa:
Are you sure about that? 'Cause l felt like you've been hiding a secret from me.
I don't doubt your love and l trust you but you know, l just felt it all of a sudden.
Boyfriend:
Kung may tinatago man ako sa'yo malalaman mo rin 'yon.
But for now, you have to get ready for school. Come on love, move your ass.
Baby japa:
Sige sayawan kita mamaya, magti-tiktok ako. Pero patulugin mo muna ako kahit mga 30 minutes lang.
Sige na bye. I love you mwah!
Boyfriend:
Love, 'wag matigas ang ulo baka ma-late ka.
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I turned off my phone saka bumalik ako sa pagtulog. It's not because of our late night talks, it's because of my parents...patulog na ako kagabi nang makarinig ako ng ingay sa labas, I sneaked out only to see my mom and dad telling shits to each other. I should be use to that but it still hurts. Kailan pa ba ako masasanay sa ganitong klase ng buhay? Bata pa lang ako mainit na ang ulo nila sa isa't isa.
Why did they get married in first place? Minahal ba talaga nila ang isa't isa? Napagod ba si mama kaya siya naghanap ng iba?...Bakit ganito kagulo ang pamilyang mayroon ako?
"You cheated on me first! You fooled me not just once, twice but thrice! So don't you dare put all the blame on me, kasi sa ating dalawa, ikaw ang walang kwenta!"
I heard my mom's voice outside my room, she sound so mad. I immediately get off the bed and open the door, there l saw my dad slapped my mom, buti na lang dumating si Nanay Fe para umalalay kung hindi baka nahulog na sa hagdanan si mama.
"Akio, Isabelle, tama na." awat ni nanay sa kanila. "Nakikita kayo ng anak niyo."
After hearing those words, they both looked at my direction. I smiled at them like nothing happened, even though it felt so heavy inside.
"Good morning everyone!" I greeted cheerfully, controlling my true emotions to not consume me. "Is breakfast ready? Let's eat!" aya ko sa kanila pero bago pa ako makababa sa hagdanan ay tinawag ako ni mama.
"You saw me in the cafe, didn't you?" she asked.
So she knew it was me?...but she doesn't even care to explain. How sick is this family can be?
Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako bago humarap kay mama. "Could we pretend as happy family for once?...Puwede bang kahit ngayon lang maramdaman ko naman ang pagmamahal ng isang magulang?" I instantly wiped off the tears fell from my eyes.
Family should be happy, home should be a place of love...but mine is full of shits.
My parents gave me this trauma, they're the reason why l have trust issues, because of them, l was afraid to love.
"You caused me pain...You never treat me as your daughter! Sana ako na lang 'yung nasagasaan dati para hindi na kayo mag-abalang umuwi pa rito, sana hindi na lang! Pasensya na po ah kung nasayang ko ang oras niyo." pagkasabi ko no'n ay tinalikuran ko sila at pumasok ako sa kuwarto ko. Nagkulong ako buong araw, wala akong pinagbuksan ni isa sa kanila, gusto kong mapag-isa...gaya ng nakasanayan ko na.
They made me do this, they made me felt this way.... almost twenty years and l'm still here, same scenarios, same feelings and emotions.
When will l be contented?
When will l feel unjudge?
When will this world be normal to people like me?
