Those days l felt like l was drowned with my own emotions, there's only person who consoled and made me feel better.
It's Rhys, my boyfriend.
Sa kaniya ako nakahanap ng kapayapaan. Sa tuwing kausap ko siya nakakalimutan ko ang mga problem ko sa buhay, para bang ako at siya lang ang tao sa mundo...Na wala akong pinagdadaanan dahil pinapasaya niya ako. Sa kaniya ko naramdaman ang pagmamahal at atensyon na kulang sa akin.
Sukong-suko na ako pero binigyan niya ako ng rason upang magpatuloy. He's my anchor, my home and my safe place. l found peace in his voice every time he sang for me. Minsan napapaisip na lang ako....do l deserve him?
Masyado siyang perpekto para sa isang katulad ko...Sa lahat ng babae sa mundo sa isang abnormal pa siya nagkagusto.
[Love? Are you still there?]
His husky voice broke my reverie.
I nodded like he's in front of me. "Yeah."
Overthinking is my worst enemy. The worst place l could be is in my own head.
[Ayos ka lang ba? May problema ba? Gusto mo pag-usapan natin.]
This man love a depressive, overthinker, has social phobia, anger management and trust issues woman....He embrace me and my flaws without even thinking if l really am the right person for him, 'cause l feel like l'm not.
Tears fell from my eyes. I tried not to make a sound so he won't worry.
[ I can hear you, Akemi. I know you're crying...Gusto ko nang umuwi para mayakap man lang kita.] I heard him sighed. [ Alam mo mahal, hindi lahat ng tao kasing tapang mo. Isipin mo 'yon, lumaki ka na walang magulang na nakaalalay sa'yo pero nagpapatuloy ka pa rin, kasi may pinaniniwalaan ka. Naniniwala kang may plano sa'yo ang Diyos at iyon ang panghawakan mo...Ito, lahat ng 'to dadaan lang, kaya kapit lang hmm? Trust in God, don't, never, ever lose hope."
I knew l could hurt him in any way, but l couldn't ever stop loving him. He fell first but l fell harder.
"I love you, Rhys...mahal na mahal kita." dati hindi ko magawang sabihin ang mga katagang ito, pero nang makilala ko siya unti-unti na akong nasasanay. Totoo nga ang sabi nila, sa ngalan ng pag-ibig lahat nagbabago.
[I love you more, love. You're the reason why l'm fighting.] he said.
I was confused of what he said but l hope it's nothing serious.
When he ended the call, l checked my contact list and l sent a message to my tita.
l made up my mind, payag na ako sa gusto niya. Baka roon ko rin makita si Rhys.
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MESSAGES
Tita Aerin
Friday, 4:11 PM
From: Tita Aerin
Are you sure about that? But l have to talk to your parents first.
They might sue me.
To: Tita Aerin
No need, tita. Na kaya nga nilang hindi umuwi ng bahay para makita ako, it's not a big deal to them if l leave. They don't care though.
From: Tita Aerin
Bakit biglang nagbago ang desisyon mo? How about your friends?
To: Tita Aerin
I don't have real friends remember?
I guess it's the right time to let them go.
Desperada na akong gumaling.
From: Tita Aerin
Okay sweetheart but l'm just curious. This is not you, kapag may gusto ka pinag-iisipan mo munang maagi bago mo gawin.
l want to know, why?
To: Tita Aerin
I have a boyfriend
From: Tita Aerin
What? Oh my god! Are you serious?
When did you met this guy?
Does he exist or not?
To: Tita Aerin
Yes, he exist and we met online. It's a long story. I'll explain to you tomorrow.
From: Tita Aerin
He's a stranger afterall, how could you trust him easily?
To: Tita Aerin
He love me and l love him.
We love each other.
From: Tita Aerin
That's not enough reason. I'm having a bad feelings about this. Where is he right now?
To: Tita Aerin
U.S
From: Tita Aerin
If he's real then l want to talk to him tomorrow, l don't mind if it's just a video call, l want to confirm it on my own.
To: Tita Aerin
Sige po
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Pero kinabukasan hindi ako nakatanggap ni isang mensahe galing kay Rhys. Hindi siya nagparamdam, hinintay ko ang reply niya pero walang dumating.
