May mga magulang talaga na ang tingin sa anak nila ay walang kwenta.
Iyon bang sila ang nagdesisyong magka-anak pero parang tayo pa ang may kasalanan kung bakit tayo nabuhay sa mundo.
My parents...they didn't treat me right.
Ipinanganak lang ako para ipaalaga sa iba...Pagkakamali ko lang ang napapansin nila pero hindi nila nakikita ang halaga ko.
My grandmother said l am a blessing because l'm the only child. But l felt like l'm nobody to them. They go home whenever they want, but usually they stay in their penthouse, working in their office, dealing business stuffs in our company. I wonder if there are times they think of me.
Naisip man lang ba nila ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing mag-isa lang ako sa bahay, nakadungaw sa bintana at tinitignan sila sa sasakyan na papalayo.
"Your artwork seem sad, why aren't you using light colors this time?." The art instructor look curious, she's staring at my canvas. "Dark colors aren't bad but I figured you want to make a mother and child masterpiece using charcoal and acrylic paint, am l right?."
I nodded. "Yes ma'am, l realized l'd been painting positive images, I want to try this one since it depends on my mood these passed days." I continue mixing the colors to it's right blend.
"If an author express his/her feelings and thoughts through writing, a painter express it through painting." miss Aris sit beside me. She's one of the best artist l knew. Her artworks are absolutely amazing. The artistry of the great painter. "I wonder if this artwork of yours reflect on your own experience." she said. I sketch a mother who abandoned her child. It's not like l'm totally abandoned, but I felt it that way.
Nang dumating ang hapon, kumain ako mag-isa sa starbucks cafe. Nasa medyo tago akong upuan nang mahagip nang paningin ko si mama...kasama ang ibang lalaki. Tumigil ako sa pagkain at tinignan sila. She look so happy while the man at his 50s guided her to sit. But what shocked me the most is he hold my mother's hand and my mother just smiled at him like It's not a big deal.
She's married!
Anong nangyayari? Bakit may kasamang iba si mama? Nasaan si papa?
"What do you want to order, darling?" Tanong nang lalaki sa kaniya nang pumunta ito sa may cashier. "Anything for you."
Masaya silang kumain, kitang-kita ko ang ningning nang saya sa mukha ng aking ina.
I looked down and hide my face when my mother's eyes settled on me. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from tearing up but l can't help it, tahimik akong umiyak at tinignan na lang sila na paalis ng cafe.
I don't want to think negative but what l saw aches my heart. Kaya ba minsan niya lang ako puntahan sa bahay kasi may iba na siyang inaasikaso? Kasal siya kay papa pero bakit hinahayaan niya lang ang ibang lalaki na hawakan siya sa kamay at beywang. They looked so happy with each other. Isn't that cheating?
Is mom cheating on dad?
How could she smile like that to someone while her daughter is right here, looking at them.
I hate her.
