𝐎𝐫𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐫𝐲 [Saiki x Male! Reader]

XVII

Kusuo Saiki P.O.V

i think i went a little far. i scared him. he didn't even show up to school today. i thought about visiting him to make sure he was okay but he probably needs some space so i'll let him be.

using clairvoyance once or twice to make sure he was okay doesn't hurt however. he looks frustrated.

he sat with his chin resting on his table. he scratched the back of his head and dropped his forehead to the table. i could hear him groan. even though i'm using my clairvoyance, he's out of my two-hundred meter* range so i can't read his mind.

even if i can't read his mind i know what he's thinking. he's most likely thinking about what to say to me. to be fair, i was very hard on him so it makes sense he feels pressured to tell me as soon as possible.

he got a call on his phone and immediately shot up. he looked at the phone and looked nervous as he answered the phone. "h-hi grandma."

my guess is that he didn't tell her he skipped out in school. i can't really hear her, it's just muffled yells but i can hear [L/n]. "i'm sorry. i just i-i wasn't feeling well is all."

the yelling quieted. "yeah i had a fever. 38°**. i know, i was gonna but i forgot to text you i'm sorry."

he sounds scared but he lying anyways. granted, "my friend scared me," wouldn't be a very good excuse. he doesn't seem very comfortable with his grandparents but they're not exactly nearby so it's be fine.

"mhmm." it was silent for a second. "o-okay, bye." he hung up and his head dropped back down to the table. he sighed in response, whispering something to himself.

"lying to her is so scary." he groaned and set the phone back down.

based off context, his grandmother must have gotten a call from the school since he didn't show up. "once he turns me down everything will go back to normal. i can focus on school again and nothing will matter."

poor kid. the only thing he won't consider is the chance i like him back. he already has his mind set.

of course i know i like him. i wouldn't admit it at first but i've come to terms with it at this point. yet he has no idea. while i haven't made any effort to drop any kind of hints, considering Toritsuka figured it out it's probably obvious.

i rarely start conversations which is why i want him to bring it up. not to mention the basic small talk he always starts with is something i rarely have. most don't like it but i am, in fact, a huge fan of boring small talk. it's my personal heaven, besides coffee jelly of course.

though i do feel bad for stressing him out. "i just don't know how to say it," he whispered to himself sounding almost shameful. he's probably been thinking about this all day.

i have to admit i feel bad. feelings like this aren't common for me, i don't really know what to do with them so i did pressure him a bit. it's worse because he knows i'm telepathic. he's aware i can read his mind, meaning he's been purposely avoiding thinking about it around me. still that hasn't made him avoid me so i suppose it could be worse.

"he already knows, he just wants to hear you say it right?" he's talking to himself like he knows i'm listening.

he lifts his head off the table and looks up at the wall in front of him, coincidentally right where my clairvoyance was watching from. his gaze-perception is absurdly strong for someone who doesn't have any kind of special abilities. it scares me a little.

he sighs. i can tell he's thinking hard so for now i'll let him be also keeping my eyes crossed for that long really hurts.

he isn't wrong however, i already know how he feels but it's not that i want to hear him admit it. it's more so that he needs to admit it. [L/n] has managed to convince himself that it's impossible i have any feelings towards him that are anything more then strictly platonic.

i can tell that's stressful for him so i'd like to tell him he's wrong. the only problem is i don't know how. neither of us do, we're stuck in a bit of a loop.

i lift my glasses and rub my eyes. to use my clairvoyance i have to cross my eyes but they can get sore after a while.

i'll give it a rest and let [L/n] have some privacy. i know [L/n] will be fine, he'll figure out what to say soon enough.

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*two-hundred meters is roughly 656 feet, a little less then two American-Football fields for perspective

**38° celsius is 101° fahrenheit

authors note:
      author is American but decided against using American measurements because most countries don't use these measurements <3
author also talks in third person occasionally, it's aware this can be confusing to some and apologizes

-author