Guardian Angel

May I Hug Him?

"You? W-what are you doing here?" Torn asked frantically. He was preparing to give a speech to open his parents' birthday party when someone tapped him on the shoulder from behind. Gain stood behind him smiling gently as Torn turned around. "Didn't you say you were going back to your city after that night?"

Beam and Forth appeared behind Torn. "I asked him to come, Phi," said Beam softly.

Torn was startled and turned around again, looking confused and nervous. "B-but... why? Don't you... hate him? He killed your mother."

"He was, but I don't hate him. At first I thought I hated him, but then I realized, I haven't hated anyone in a long time and now it's getting harder and harder for me to do that because my life has been feeling really good lately."

Forth chuckled and kissed the top of Beam's head. "He was talking to Phi Gain, when we were leaving here. He told me to warm up the car and he said he needed to go to the bathroom because his stomach hurts. That's why I feel you've been in the bathroom too long, Baby, it turns out you're not having a stomach ache but looking for time to talk to other man."

"That other man is your brother's boyfriend, Poom," Beam said with a frown.

"Why, Beam?" asked Torn with teary eyes. He was sure he would never see Gain's face again after that night. He understood and was prepared to risk losing Gain, because the two of them had discussed it seriously before deciding to meet Beam.

Torn knew that Gain had endured excruciating guilt before he met Beam and spoke to him directly.

"Beam called and said that he forgave me a long time ago, before meeting him," Gain said softly with tears streaming down his face. "He said there's no point in hating me because even if he did, his mother wouldn't be able to come back alive. Besides, according to Beam, I've already paid for it with my legs and kidneys and an imperfect lifespan because of this disability."

"I kind of died when I broke up with Forth and almost lost him in the accident," Beam said softly. He squeezed Forth's hand and looked at him affectionately. "Losing Phi Torn might be a proper punishment for Phi Gain, but why should I punish Phi Torn as well by deliberately asking you to separate? Phi Torn accepted it all because he loves Forth, then, why can't I do the same for Forth too? Forth loves Phi Torn, and although he supports my decision, but I know he is sad for Phi Torn. He always praises Phi Torn, and I know he thinks about Phi Torn more than he says verbally."

"Beam told me in the car that he asked Phi Gain to come to the party for Phi Torn. He has forgiven everything and wants everyone to be happy. Beam just gave a little warning for Phi Gain, , didn't you, Baby?" asked Forth with a big smile.

Beam walked over to Gain and stood straight in front of him, staring intently. "I'm not doing this for you, or Phi Torn. I'm doing it for Forth and myself. If you dare to hurt Phi Torn, it means you're hurting Forth and when Forth is hurt, I won't stay silent. I will kill you with my own hands and believe me, when I do, you will choose suicide rather than bear the pain."

Torn, Forth, and their friends who turned out to have gathered behind Forth--they had heard the story between Gain, Torn, and Beam before and were also surprised when they saw Gain appear--gasp at Beam's words to Gain, which made Gain become pale.

Gain looked at Beam with tears streaming down his face. He was sobbing, but his lips were smiling. "Torn is my soul mate and yes, I will accept any method of killing from you if I ever make Torn cry. I'm sorry, Beam, really, for the rest of my life I will apologize to you and give you whatever you need or do whatever you want. , as long as you forgive me."

Beam smiled and shook his head. "There's no need to overdo it, Phi. I've forgiven you since before I met you. Let's just end it here and we live together in peace. I just need to ask you one thing, if you're willing."

"Please, Beam, just say it. I'll do it no matter how hard or how expensive it is."

"I don't want expensive things, Phi. I have a youngest Jamorhnoom for that," Beam said sharply. He pointed to Forth. "Before this party, I had intended to make Forth bear Baramee's name after his name, but now I have changed my mind. First, Forth is much much much crazy richer than me and he is more than capable of supporting my high maintanance life. Second, Forth  have proven that Forth loves me so he let I made him Baramee, leaving behind the big name Jamorhnoom and actually I don't like losing in competition, so I decided to show my greater love to him by leaving the name Baramee and taking his name Jamorhnoom for me. Third, well, the name Baramee doesn't sound right for Forth. Like putting a pink dress on a wolf. Eww...."

Everyone was stunned for a moment then laughed at Beam's words, including Gain who was busy wiping tears.

Forth pulled Beam's waist into his arms and kissed his head with a big smile. "My boyfriend is so cool, right?"

"I'll make sure Gain does whatever you may, Beam," Torn said hoarsely. He took Gain's hand and squeezed it gently. "Say it, Beam."

"I just ask, visit my mother's grave and apologize to her," said Beam in a light tone. "This is not a punishment, Phi Gain, just a favor for you so you can get rid of your feelings of guilt all this time."

Gain's tears fell again. He looked at Beam then looked at Forth. "Forth, may I hug him?"

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