I Did This?

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

*Harry's POV*

"Mr. Styles?"

I looked up from my daze to see a nurse.

"Yes?"

"Alison is ready for visitors."

I snapped up and said, "Thank you."

"I'm going to warn you. She's doing very well. The crash cracked some of her ribs, close to her heart and two spinal bones from impact. Be careful."

I nodded to her warning as I nudged Zayn and Penny from their naps and dragged them to her room.

I walked into the room to find Alison sleeping. She was hooked up to the IV's and heart monitors. It was something I never wanted to see. I pulled a chair over to her bed. Holding her lifeless hand in the silence, only broken by the beeps of the machines. I started to cry again.

I didn't deserve her.

She didn't deserve this.

I was the cause of this.

I'm the one to blame.

I'm a monster.

Who destroys for love.

Zayn rubbed my back for support. "Everything's gonna be alright."

I shook my head, letting out my own soft cries. "It's not." I whispered.

"Yes it will. Don't worry. She can pull through this."

I sat, staring at her lifeless figure. Her hair was light brown, lighter than usual from the loss of vitamins and nutrients in her body. Her skin was pale unlike her sun kissed skin that I loved to touch everyday. Her eyes closed off from me in her sleep. I longed to see the bright green-brown that shone whenever she looked at me. Her lips were a dark murky pink, deprived from body heat. I wanted to kiss those lips without being afraid of no response. Knowing she will always kiss me back.

"If you every leave me baby.

Leave some morphine at my door.

Cuz it will take a whole lot of medication

To realize what we used to have we don't, have it anymore."

I started to sing. Calming myself as my hand never loosened its grip.

"There's no religion that can save me

No matter how long my knees are on the floor

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'

Will keep you by my side

Will keep you from walkin' out the door.

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

I'll never be your mother's favorite

Your daddy can't even look me in the eye

Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing

Sayin there goes my little girl

Walkin' with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand

Oooh well little darlin' watch me change their minds

Yeah for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make you mine

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

Don't just say, goodbye

Don't just say, goodbye

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make it right"

I whispered the rest of the sing as I looked to her. Tears pouring from my eyes as I struggled to even breathe.

"Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain"

I rested my head on the bed, crying into the sheets. I heard only the patter of heavy rain outside, with some thunder that didn't stir me, followed by a long digital tone.

"Harry. She's gone."