Two-sided

Chapter 25: break ups and shampoo

Once I returned to the apartment with the ice cream. I felt my breath get shorter as I climbed up the stairs thinking about Ethan.

I opened the door to see Jc was gone. "Hm, wonder where he went." I said to myself. I set down the ice cream. Then I heard something shuffle.

"Huh?" I whispered. I walked over to the couch and saw Ally and Ryan kissing. "OH MY GLOO--" I couldn't even finish my sentence before Ally blacked out.

I rushed over to her and Ryan's eyes were wide. "What happened to her? What were you two doing?!" I had so many questions.

"Look I'll explain it all in a minute." he pick up Ally and walked to her room down the hall. "just sit on the couch, I'll be back in a second." I hesitated and sat down.

I felt a huge weight pushing down on me. I felt sick to my stomach. Not because they were kissing, but because I could never really picture two people that were such good friends be in the same intimate moment.

I tried to relax my breathing and try to collect what just happened. Ryan came back with a smile. He turned his head to me and his smile disappeared, he sat on the couch next to me.

"What happened?!" I bursted. "look Ally woke up and needed more medicine cause she has to take the antibiotics twice a night. I grabbed her antibiotics bottle and she took them." he paused. I nodded my head as if to say 'I'm following'

"Well she acts a little loopy when she's on them and well she started saying all these things about 'you're really cute' 'on a scale of 1-10 how much do you like me?' And so on." Ryan continued.

"Well I told her she needed to go to bed and she went around the couch and fell, I went over to help her and she grabbed my face and kissed me... I may or may not have kissed back..." he blushed.

I felt a warm fuzzy, yet confused feeling in the pit of my stomach. "So are y'all like together?" I asked. "What no! I mean like I'm... I'm not sure... I'm sure it was just the antibiotics making her say all those things." he seemed to bring himself down.

"Psh sure..." I mumbled. "But where is Jc?" I asked. "He fell asleep in your room." Ryan said casually. "oh..." I sighed. "well I'm tired. I'm gonna make this all just a dream so I can go back to crying over Selena..." he got up and hunched his back in a sad manner.

"Wait!" He stopped in his tracks. "come back here..." I patted the cushion next to me. He sat back down. "Look I'm sorry Selena broke up with you, but I think talking about it could get it out of your system."

I grabbed a blanket and the ice cream and turned on some smooth jazz. "Okay, you ready? Comfy?" I laughed. He began with Selena "I thought we wouldn't have broken up so fast... Or so soon. She said she need to focus more on her music. I respected her wish and she hung up before I could say another word..." He took a scoop of Ice cream and stuffed it in his mouth.

"But what made you wanna kiss Ally back? Cause I know she wasn't the only one kissing." I crossed my arms and raised a brow.

"Okay so maybe when Ally kissed me it felt weird! I didn't want to kiss her at first, but then I just... I did." He smiled and took another scoop of ice cream.

"And? How'd you feel?" I asked. "I felt... I felt like there was fireworks in my chest... But I still missed Selena..." he frowned. I put a hand on his shoulder. "Do you mind putting my ice cream in the freezer? I'm pretty sure I'll need it tomorrow." he said with a painful smile.

"How come?" I asked putting the lid on the container. "cause I'm pretty sure I'm gonna hurt ten times more tomorrow knowing Ally won't remember what happened..." he pulled the blanket to his shoulders and laid down.

"Aren't you gonna go to your room?" I asked walking towards the fridge. "Nah... it's too close to Ally... I'm good on the couch." he smiled, but I could tell he just wanted me to leave so he could shed a few tears in peace.

I left to leave him 'sleep', I walked over to Ally's room. I slowly opened the door to see she was squeezing her pillow. I shook my head and smiled.

Ally had been so focused on her career and such she hasn't had a boyfriend since junior year of highschool. Always wanting to get further into the job she loves, she never really found a guy to love.

I'm proud of all she's accomplished. Having over 7+ million subscribers on YouTube. Having her own makeup line, and being a traveling fitness coach, she's the only reason Ryan and I could come out here.

But how am I gonna tell them I'll be transferring to New York? My smile faded and I closed her door. I walked over to my room and saw Jc laying down.

I walked over to the bed and took off my shoes and sat on the edge of the bed. "what's gonna happen now?" I whispered thinking about What I saw with Ally and Ryan.

I turned my head to Jc, he was knocked out. I laid down next to him and tried to clear my head. I faced to him. I couldn't help but feel guilty about what I had done with Ethan...

I cringed but I didn't feel bad for some unknown reason... could I have possibly like it when Ethan kissed me? I shook my head trying to get that out of my head. "No Nally no. You have a great guy right in front of you..." I began to flood my brain with overthinking.

"What if this doesn't last long... what if I'm suppose to be with Ethan?" I whispered. I felt my lungs inflate with air they weren't releasing.

I ran to the kitchen and got water. It felt like I was overheating and needed to get out of that room. I walked into Ryans room and laid on his bed.

His pillow smelled like that shampoo I got him for as a gift from London. It was like coconut and or lavender. I knew there was some other scent in it that made it just smell heavenly.

I smiled as I buried my face in his pillow. I clutched the blanket tight and fell asleep.