gifts from god | jensoo

Aftermath | Chapter 23

When we moved past the peak and started to descend, her face was red, and I could feel my own skin burning from our extremely long kiss.

That felt so refreshing, I don't think I've ever felt this good in an extremely long time.

"I didn't think you'd..." Kiss me.

I leaned back in my seat, "I didn't think so too."

Oh. Okay.

She sounded upset I said that. I didn't mean it like that. I was scared, too scared to do that. But I did!

"I meant— that I didn't think I'd have the courage to—"

My heart is beating too fast for my own good.

She smiled at me fondly, "Well, isn't this terrible?"

I smiled at her, "Not really."

"I'm starting to really really like you Kim Jisoo," Jennie warned, instead of confessing. This is terrible isn't it?

"That sounds like a threat," I chuckled.

She shot me a sly look, "Do you want it to be?"

"No, of course not," I laughed.

I shouldn't have said that.

"Did you see me doing this?" I asked out of curiosity.

She shook her head, "Not in the many visions for tonight, no."

I laughed, "You had such little faith in me?"

"It's not about having faith in you, it's about having faith in me," She responded before looking away. "As you've said, it's subjective, so I suppose sometimes it gets affected by my own feelings."

I rose my eyebrow, "You're losing me." She's contradicting herself.

I already let that slip. I don't think I can go any longer.

"It's okay, time will tell," she dismissed with a smile.

I had a bad feeling about where this was going, and what this kiss would mean for her and I. As much as I'm a hard-assed person, I don't just kiss anybody.

Unless they kiss me first and I can't say no.

But—

God why is this so incomprehensible for me? I feel so troubled knowing that she could completely disregard our kiss, it's actually making me anxious.

"Are we gonna go another round?" she asked when we were approaching the ground.

I shot a playful smile at her, "Is that your way of asking me to kiss you again?"

She's so— Ugh!

"No! I'm just— I—"

I laughed, "I'm kidding. We can get off. I'll get us some finger food before we leave the carnival."

She nodded in agreement. And then she's gonna be indifferent. That's where all of this ends.

I didn't address her thoughts verbally. This is something that I supposed she had seen in the near future— but as she said, her visions are subjective.

I don't think I will let that happen.

I can't just ignore her because it's so hard to keep it up.

She's gotten to me, and I don't suppose it's as bad as I always made it out to be.

When we reached the ground, we both stepped out and she was apprehensive.

I blinked at her stiff body. So this was how we should act after sharing a kiss?