Hungry

~fifteen~

It's been about two months now, Ran was fully functioning again and back to his normal self. He ended up pulling his therapist which still makes you laugh but you were happy for him. Lana was super sweet and helped him still with everything. She also helped you without even knowing. She was the only other female that was able to come into the Bonten hideouts, so it was nice to finally have someone other then the boys.

Sanzu and you were doing amazing. He still never continued to leave your side. Helping you through everything honestly without you even realizing. He was there for everything. You never really stopped grieving your brother, Rin. Especially when Ran went through his own process of blame and denial. He tried so hard to keep it together in front of you without realizing that you were going through the same feelings and emotions.

Until one night, Sanzu had left to get you ice cream and you fully broke down in your bed. It happened so fast you couldn't breathe. The room left so empty, and you felt all those feelings you felt a couple months ago that you thought you were over and worked through. Of course, Ran being nosey and always coming to bother you like his normal self, walked in, and saw you. He ran to your bed and talked you down helping you get your breathing under control. Which just turned into you both spilling your feelings. Sanzu overheard from outside the room and went back down to the kitchen just waiting for you two to finish your moment, however long it took.

That night, Ran and you needed it more then you both knew. So even since, he takes you out to dinner once a week and you guys just talk and go to the beach. Sometimes there is laughs and sometimes there is tears but you where forever grateful for how amazing Ran was to you. He really was your best friend, brother, and parent in one. He kept his silly, goofy attitude, but he knew that he now had to play Rin's role of being the levelheaded, calm brother.

Even thou, life seemingly went back as normal as it can get, you were still angry. Angry that someone took your brother. Took half your heart. Took one of the two things that kept you sane. You wanted your own revenge, you wanted everyone to feel your pain. Feel every fucking emotion and hard ship you faced. That's exactly what you planned on doing.

During one of the Bonten meetings, you had walked in causing all the boys to turn and face you being so quite you could hear a pin drop.

"Princess, what are you doing?" Sanzu stands up walking over to you and cupping your face in his hands.

"I wanna join Bonten. Not be the little sister that just hangs out here." You said look straight into Sanzu's eyes.

With a loud laugh from Ran, "Did you get into Sanzu's pill stash? Because you are actually high if you think that will EVER happen."

"I'm being serious Ran. Let me join. I'm hurting the same ways you are." You replied pushing Sanzu's hands off you and moving past him towards the round table everyone was at. Mikey just staring at you.

"No, we lost our brother doing this shit, I'm not losing you too. That's that, now go." Ran angrily replied slapping his hands on the table and standing up.

"You think I don't know that? You think I don't feel that every day? All the pain and rage you feel, I feel that too. Let me fucking join and help." You screamed back slapping your hands on the table and leaning over the table towards him, matching his stance.

Ran just sighed and sat back down, dropping his head, looking down. He knew how he felt and the anger he felt when planning. He knew that you were way to stubborn to listen and would just go out and do something to get yourself hurt or killed. He had no other choice.

Ran looked up to Mikey and gave him the nod that he condones it. Mikey looked back at him, then turned his lifeless glare to you.

"Sit." Was all he muttered as he continued talking.

Sanzu brought you with him to his seat being there was only enough chairs for them. While you sat on his lap you took in all the information they were giving. Stealing Sanzu's paper that you knew he did not ever use. With all the information you were taking in, the plan you had come up with was falling into place better then you ever imagined. With a small smirk growing on your face, Sanzu caught it and squeezed your thigh. The thought of you doing crazy shit with him made him more and more turned on by you. He knew he was falling even more in love with you just from being in this meeting, these feelings so foreign to him but knowing it was all worth it if it meant you would be happy.

After the meeting, everyone had split up besides Mikey, Ran, Sanzu and you. You four headed to the car towards your place. Picking up your favorite take-out of course. As you laid sprawled out in the back with your head resting on Sanzu's thigh, with him lighting stroking your hair. You felt calm and content just scrolling through social media and casually listening to their conversations.

Upon on arriving home, you all ate in the kitchen at the island but this time it was all talks of this party that was coming up. You shot your head up at the name of the rival gang that took your brother. After Rin, Bonten continued business as normal but very low key. Giving the rival gang ideas that they had "won" and was going to take over Tokyo. Mikey letting them have their moment to come up with a plan, but little to his knowledge, you had the perfect one.

"So, their entire top ranks and new leader are going to be there at this club, celebrating whatever the fuck they think they are winning." Ran spoke out in conversation.

"Okay, this is my plan. Ran and Sanzu, quite until I'm completely done. No objecting got it?" you replied look at the two.

"The floor is yours baby." Sanzu replied with a devilish grin.        

- sorry if this chapter is short! I love you all for reading♥ Thank you so so much for appreciating my work. You guys are amazing! xoxo -missbutterfly