Can't Unlove Her

Chapter 5

Deanna's

I couldn't help but to massage my head as soon as I entered this room. Nakailang buntong hininga na din ako dahil sa hindi pa din ako makapaniwala sa naging palitan namin ng tinginan ni Jema.

Maybe it's not obvious but I'm really nervous as I approached them. My hands were literally shaking and I was sweating non-stop. Hindi ko pa nga alam kung dapat ba kong lumapit agad sa kaniya or kay Tito na lang muna.

I wasn't prepared on how I would explain to her in case she remembered my face because obviously, we've already met twice even though I immediately walked away from her.

Luckily, she didn't remember.

Pero bakit parang ang lungkot ko ng hindi niya ako maalala?

How come she didn't remember me? Samantalang ako, picture pa lang niya. Pakiramdam ko kilalang kilala ko na siya.

What the? Am I upset? No way!

Sinampal ko ang sarili ko para magising sa katotohanan.

"Nababaliw ka na naman, Deanna!" inis kong sabi sa sarili ko.

I looked around the room where I am going to stay for a while.

It doesn't deviate from the look of my room in my condo kaya okay na ito, masasanay din naman ako.

Nahiga ako sa kama at nakaramdam naman ako ng comfort dahil dun. Wala pa din kasi akong pahinga kahit tulog nahihirapan ako. Hindi kasi comfortable matulog sa car, nakakangalay sa katagalan.

"I already miss my human size Batman statue" Para akong baliw na kinakausap ang sarili ko habang nakatingin sa kawalan. Kadalasan kasing bumubungad sakin ang Batman statue ko tuwing papasok ako ng kwarto ko sa Condo.

Muli ko namang naalala ang dahilan kung bakit ako nandito. It was a crazy journey bago ako tuluyang pumunta dito. Hindi ako sigurado kung tama ba tong decision ko pero minsan lang naman ako sumugal. Sasagarin ko na.

Flashback

"Let me tell you a story first, Deanna. After mong makinig then I'll let you decide. Kung ayaw mo pa din talaga then I'll stop. Hindi ko na ipipilit pa but here me out for the last time, Anak" I saw sincerity in my Dad's eyes. His eyes is longing pero kahit na ganun nakangite pa din siya.

I just nodded as a response.

"Once upon a time, there were two women. They are bestfriends.They were always there for each other, pushing one another and the shoulder to cry on when life gets tough. In other words, they are the "One call away" of each other. Until they became so comfortable, clingy, inseparable duo and eventually they became lovers later on. It was a hard decision but they fought their love for each other for who knows how hard it was until they both get tired. How unfortunate it was that they weren't really tired of each other but  they chose to stop their relationship because they were tired of fighting with their family when they knew that they were too powerful to give them what they wanted, an acceptance."

Hindi ko alam kung sino o kanino ang kwento na ito. Pero I'm grateful that I never experienced those hardships from my Dad. He accepted me for what I am and never kong naramdaman na his love for me, diminished.

"It was a heartbreaking ending for them but they decided to deal with it. For 5 years, they have no communication with each other. Unexpectedly, they met again at A's wedding. B's attended her bestfriend's wedding, together with her husband and her 1 year old daughter. It was an unexpected surprise which completed her bestfriend's day. That was the moment their second chance started but not as a lover anymore. Otherwise, a second chance to save their friendship. Their relationship with each other's family has also improved" Hindi ko naman mapigilang humanga sa kwento ni Dad. It is indeed love is sweeter the second time around. Kahit pa hindi sila ang nagkatuluyan sa dulo.