The Others | BTS x Reader

7 - Pride & Stubbornness

We sat around for quite a while, a lot of others had left already, only a few were roaming around. It was clear that the supermarket was empty but the others were in close proximity.

     'okay let's go, we can with a circle around it and enter the supermarket from the back' Yoongi said

Was he serious?

All of us looked at each other in doubt.

      'let's go!' he said as he moved towards the front door in the hallway.

I quickly got up and also moved to the hallway, while the others didn't move away from the window in the living room.

    'It's too dangerous, nobody wants to do this! ' I hissed.

It was obvious that Yoongi was trying to hold in his anger, but I couldn't care too much at this point.

      'Can you just not be a pain in the ass for once?' he groaned 

I scoffed and crossed my arms

      'I am just saying what everyone is thinking'

Yoongi balled his hands

     'We need the food' he stated 'and we don't know if they will leave soon, we can go via the back'

For a moment I saw the hesitation on his face.

     'I get that you feel responsible for the group, but you're not. We are all adults when we decide we don't want to do this, it is not on you. Do you understand that?' I argued back.

    'So you'd rather die of hunger?' he said angrily

     'There is a probable chance of dying if we undertake this stupid idea. None of us have faced them face to face because of your brilliant strategy.'

      'you don't have to face them!' Yoongi raised his voice this time.

       'Come on Yoongi, are you blind? look at how many there are, we will never go unnoticed if we get closer. why are you so fucking stubborn?' 

There was a twitch on his face and his eyes seemed to spit fire.

With every argument we made we got closer and closer.

It was an understatement to say that the tension was extremely high.

      'hey, guys..' Soobin awkwardly shouted from the living room, or it seemed he was in the opening as his voice was pretty clear.

We didn't lose eye contact, and neither of us acknowledged soobins presence.

      'So uhm The Others just left. I think we can proceed without any issues' 

This time we both looked sideways at Soobin

     'What?' we simultaneously asked still in a tense way

      'they just left, like literally a moment ago'

Yoongi huffed 'alright, then let's go.'

We packed as much as we possibly could. It really was a party. This supermarket had maybe everything we wanted, yet I didn't feel happy at all.

The argument could have been avoided if we waited a bit more, I didn't regret what I said to Yoongi but I hated that we had a fallout like this.

It was also obvious that Yoongi avoided me, he didn't look at me nor speak to me and thus I decided to go by myself to gather food.   

     'What a feast!' Hoseok exclaimed happily when we returned and showed them our stash.

Yoongi passed everyone without a word and went up the stairs.

      'what's with him?' Hoseok asked worried this time.

     'Nothing' I answered annoyed.

      'You two had a fight?' Namjoon asked.

I groaned 'Can't you just leave me alone' I said and I also went upstairs but obviously to a vacant room and I harshly pulled the door closed.

Sometime later there was a knock on the door and Jin appeared

     'we will have dinner soon so I think you should join us' he said

I nodded 'yes okay'

He came closer and gave me a hug

      'It will be alright ynnie, people fight and then make up.' 

The entire night Yoongi still ignored me, it wasn't as if I put a lot of effort into making contact but still.

Also, with everyone around, I didn't think it was a good time to talk to him but I did hate to see him so distant.

I guess a downside was that it also made the whole atmosphere in the group a bit grim, and as soon as I was finished with dinner I retreated back to my room.

I sighed as it really seemed to occupy my mind and prevent me from sleeping. I could hear the group more happily talk now downstairs, and after some time I also heard how they all went to their rooms.

Silence returned to the house. My mind wasn't silent though, my thoughts were all over the place.

 I was too stubborn, or maybe too proud to go down and talk to him.

The fight with him was painful like it seemed to actually physically ache but sleeping without his safety next to me was the shittiest.

I sighed one more time and I knew I had to talk to Yoongi first, because like this I wouldn't fall asleep anyway.

I opened my door, but I jumped back a little as I saw Yoongi right in front of me

      'You scared the shit out of me!' I whisper shouted

      'I was about to knock' he said a bit dazed

I opened and nudged for him to come inside and as he did, I closed the door behind him.

There was a moment we paused to look into each other's eyes.

       'I am sorry for raising my voice at you' he suddenly said.

      'I am sorry too' I admitted. 

Yoongi looked down

      'I just find it difficult that you spoke against me, as the leader I need to make the hard decisions and when you start to doubt me like that I feel like I lose that.'

       'I know and I am sorry but it was clear to me Soobins group also wasn't comfortable in going, and you have done so well as the leader but I do think I need to speak up if I do not agree with you. It wouldn't be safe if we weren't all comfortable with the plan.'

        'You're right, I guess it was the first time someone challenged me like that, so I didn't respond in the best way'

I smiled softly at him, I didn't feel any anger or resentment toward him anymore. 

       'someone has to be the first' I answered, and I could see in Yoongi's complexion that he also knew our fight was now over.

He also smiled a little 'of course that had to be you'

It was a bit cryptic but the butterflies that I got by seeing his smile took my attention.

      'you want to stay?' I asked hesitantly and Yoongi nodded 'if that's okay'

       'it is' I answered 'I am happy we are okay again' I added.

and then he did something that was very much unexpected; he pulled me closer into a hug.

He wasn't the most touchy person, not at all actually. It was very nice though, to have his arms around me like this.