28/9/21
So many contacts and friends on social media yet alone when need somone to talk to. In the darkest of these nights when even the moon hides behind the clouds I just needed somone to hold me to tell I'm enough tell me that I can do this somone who will hold my hand even if it's just emotionally just wanted someone.
With just the emptiness surrounding me every night and the loneliness throughout the day I lie to myself that I'm okay and happy until the sun goes down and I couldn't hold the darkness inside me anymore. It comes back just like that the tears and voices comes chasing me till I break down every night... yet no one knows.
Watching them hanging out and having fun every day having so many photos let alone memories I stay inside my walls not because I want to just because I didn't have somone I could call a 'friend'. I did have friends but they won't hang out with me. Why ? I don't know because they're not allowed to.. or because they don't wanted to or because I don't deserve to. Many unanswered questions that'll remain unanswered. Just like always.
-late night diaries.
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Blue & Grey
Non-FictionA diary written by a suicidal and depressed soul going through the hardest time fighting her own inner demons. My diary. 💜
