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Blue & Grey

Nonfiksi

A diary written by a suicidal and depressed soul going through the hardest time fighting her own inner demons. My diary. 💜

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by minmeaow

23/11/22

After standing in the dark for so long, I finally found my light. I finally saw myself in the future. I saw myself being something and someone who people know.
I saw myself Happy.

I just had to cross the small sea and be on the island of happiness, of belongingness.

So I left for the sea with only myself leaving behind the haunted voices, the uncertainty, with my pockets full of what I once thought I can never have 'Positive thoughts'.

Watching the shore shining brightly on the other side. Smiling I big my goodbye to the lonely darkness and started my journey to my future.

. . . . . .

What I forgot was the monsters and storm that resides in the sea waiting for me. To break through my mind and shake my boat of happiness.

Yet again I found myself battling with the storm trying to sink me into the abyss of nothingness and the voices returned to greet me like an old friend.

Will I ever be able to make my way to the happy island or will I get lost in the sea of despair. Yet again.

- late night diaries.