18/12/21
They were crying because the bride will be going to her new home.
I was crying because that would be the last time I would get to see you. You'll be going on your own path and I'll be going mine.
Sure I'll wait here until I can't see you anymore but you won't be thinking the same you won't turn around just to get a glimpse of my crying eyes you won't understand the reason of those Tears you won't feel my hurting heart.
And it hurts more because I know all of these things. But still I crave it. Living through those moments. Capturing you in my eyes. Keeping those memories in my heart. Yes loving someone hurts especially when it's one sided. But you live through that pain because it's Love.
You cry every night but still smile remembering the few good days.
Will I ever be able to confess ? No. Because He already got that place reserved for someone else.
I'll just watch from the sidelines watching him making more memories.... with someone else.
Walking down those paths always by your side through happiness and sadness from inside the shadows where he won't see me. Keeping those photos like treasure. Hidden away in the darkness of my cupboard. Waiting for these feelings to fade away becoming yet another memory.
-late night diaries.
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Blue & Grey
Non-FictionA diary written by a suicidal and depressed soul going through the hardest time fighting her own inner demons. My diary. 💜
