𝕁𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕎𝕒𝕚𝕥 𝔽𝕠𝕣 𝕄𝕖 // Anna Shumate & Eva Cudmore

Anna, my lovely Anna

EVA'S POV

Why my life can't stop being such a bullshit.

I don't know what time it is but I think it's late since my mother won't stop knocking on my door.

"Eva, come on wake up, it's noon. You can't stay in bed everyday" my mother wouldn't stop bugging me. I just want to be on my own. I don't want to see anyone.

"You've been doing this for days. At least talk to me."

Getting no answer from me, she stopped knocking the door and left. I'm sorry to treat my mother like this but honestly I don't care about anything or anyone anymore. Or at least, there is still one person occupying my mind. But every time I think about it, I get a lump in my throat and I don't feel like crying again today.

So I decided to get up and go take a shower I need it so badly. 

Why can't I wash away my thoughts the way I wash away dirt?

Right now all I feel is anger and disappointment. And even after everything that's happened, I can't take it out on her. I know she had nothing to do with the drama, which in my opinion is the dumbest drama I've ever been put through, but she still could have said something instead of standing on the sidelines and not calculating me anymore.

I expected much more from her also because I thought there was something between us besides being friends. Maybe that's what's still holding me close to her.

I just want to...I don't know...right now I just can't figure out what the fuck is going on with me.

I closed the water, dried myself and got dressed. I went downstairs and attracted the attention of my parents. They looked at me as if I had come back from beyond the grave, although it was almost true since I hadn't left the room in days.

"What are you looking at?" said i annoyed.

They mumbled something and then offered me some freshly baked cookies. I took a few and went back to my room.

I checked my phone and noticed texts from Conner. He is currently the only person I talk to at times. I know he's my ex and he may still have feelings for me but I only see him as a friend.

xxConner🔥xx

-Hey bby! Excited about your last day of confinement?-

"Oh shit" i said by myself. This is the last day I will be forced to stay in Canada. I hadn't noticed.

-Why? Any plans?-

-Well, there's a little halloween party saturday night.-

-I don't know if I can make it-

-C'mon, let's go out and forget our troubles. Just like old times.-

It's been a while since I've been to a party or left this house.

-Come on!!! I won't let you go until you say yes-

Maybe a night off will do me good...

-Okay, I'm in.-

-GREAT!-

-Where are we going?-

-At the Wish House-

-So I should fly out just for the party and then come back? You are crazy.-

-Nooo, Wish House hosts us as long as we want.-

-I don't know...-

-I've already booked us in, so there's no going back 🤗 -.

"Motherfucker!" I think I said it so loud that my mom yelled at me from the other room.

Come on now it's just a simple little party, what could possibly go wrong?

I spent the rest of the day working out and doing some tiktok. I already see so many comments coming in in profusion and many of them asking when me and her will see each other again.I wanted to answer them, but didn't know exactly what to write. So I decided to turn off my phone and go to sleep since it was getting late. 

Time goes by so fast when your mind is elsewhere. 

And right now mine is somewhere in someone else's arms.

Anna,

My lovely Anna.