Your Hearts Desire Part 3 ( Final Part)

Nog elända

MARIE

After sending my little message to Alex, I went back to bed. I crawled in, and Hux pulled me to him in his sleep. I accepted it, resting my head on his chest while he held me. I felt like trash, I didn't feel healed really. But at least I was in the arms of someone who cared about me. I tried not to think about Bill as I fell asleep. He was probably looking down on me from heaven, disappointed in me... I dreamt of my hookup with Hux. How he felt on top of me, his body weight...the way he held me...how his hands were down my pants...exploring my core...his loud moaning as he thrust while I held on to him tightly... The dream changed. I was on the base again. This time, Alex was there, her saber pointed at me. I also had my saber out. Bill and Elias were dead behind her. "I HATE YOU!" I screamed, running at her. Our sabers clashed, and we fought aggressively. The anger built up at her, and the lightning came out of my hand, attacking her. I watched as she was electrocuted to death, but her hand was also out. I didn't see anything, but I felt like I was on fire. The pain was so real I could feel it. I was frying her to death and she was burning me...

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 As my eyes opened from the dream, I heard Alex in my head. Oh Marie, perhaps it's you who won't see me coming. I see and hear everything you do. Even now, I can see that you've been busy indeed. Romping around with Hux...if you think I am going to let you get your skanky paws on Elias, you're wrong. Watch your back, Marie. I will burn you to ashes. Just. Watch. Me. After that, I couldn't feel her anymore. I couldn't reach her which made me angrier. Did she just bond block me??? Is that a thing? I felt the anger beginning to boil over. She has no right to keep me from my own son. "Hux," I whispered, "We have a problem..." I turned over to see him, to touch him and make sure he was awake. He wasn't there. 

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I went down to the breakfast hall to get something to eat and saw him there, filling up a small plate. I went and stood next to him in the line. "Hey," I mumbled, not smiling, but resting my head on his shoulder. "You should be training," said Hux, coldly. He didn't acknowledge my touch. I lifted my head, looking at him, "What?" "Train, now." He remarked, still not looking at me. He turned to walk to his seat, so I followed him. "What are you talking about?" I asked, getting frustrated. "You need to get your power stronger, so you can defeat Alex." I sighed, "It won't do anything. I think she blocked me," Hux suddenly looked at me, then dropped his tray on his table, but remained standing. "What do you mean she blocked you?" "I...I can't reach her anymore." I said. I don't feel anything towards her. Maybe the bond broke or something. Hux looked angry. "That can't happen. You need to find a way to reach her again." He seemed like he was almost panicking now. He roughly grabbed my head. "Use your hate against her. Something! Think woman! Don't throw away this power you two have! Think!!!" I pushed his hands off me, "What is with you Hux??? Just yesterday you were...you cared....at least I thought you did..." He had no remorse in his eyes. He was different now. No...not different. He seemed like his old self again. "Figure it out, I'm running out of time," he said, then sat down at his table, ignoring me. I stomped off. What the fuck was going on? Hux was so caring up until now. He only seemed to care about my bond with Alex. And why did he say "I'm running out of time" instead of "We're running out of time"...  

I trained alone, but it was pointless. I didn't feel stronger, just angrier. I felt so much hate towards Alex. I couldn't use the lightning unless I felt the rage towards her. It almost felt encouraging to hate her. But I didn't feel the bond be stronger. If anything, it felt like it was breaking. Why did Hux care so much about it anyway? It was dark, I thought I'd head back to Hux's area and rest, assuming I was back to my sleeping bag when I heard a weird noise. It sounded like growling. Was it a bear? Were there even bears on this planet? I turned the corner, no longer hearing the growl but heard chomping. There was a bush ahead of me where the source of the noise was. As I stepped up to it, I smelled iron. It was way too strong. No, that wasn't iron. That was blood. I pulled back the bush. Hux was on all fours, hunched over this large lump. He cocked his head up, and I screamed. A rebel body was beneath him, one of the younger guys. His chest was completely ripped open, blood all over Hux's face. His eyes were yellow, and he had a wide jaw showing rows of razor-sharp teeth. "Oh dollface, I'm sorry you had to see this," He said, his voice mixed with the one voice I hated more than anything else. I turned to run, but Pennywise the clown blocked my path, grabbing me by the throat. "Ohhh boy!! You stumbled upon our little secret.." He mocked being shocked. His white glove hands squeezed my throat. I knew I saw those fucking hands last night. He was cutting off my air so I couldn't speak. "Oh my sweet dollface," he said, gently sticking his thumb in my mouth. "Hux is the evilest soul I've ever come across. No one back on Earth is malicious like him. That's why I was able to transfer myself from you to him when he violated you. Such a horrible thing to do to a poor woman like yourself..." I was so shocked I felt a tear fall down my cheek. I felt Hux's body press against mine behind me. When he spoke, I could smell death on his breath, and the blood. "Master, I've fed." "Excellent," said the clown. "I am more powerful than I have ever felt than being on that planet of dirt. I don't need to hide in a sewer in this galaxy. I can go wherever I please thanks to Huxy..." The yellow eyes shifted back down to me, "The only thing now I need to rule the universe, is your precious bond. I'm angry you have not given it to me yet," The hands finally let me go and I fell to my knees, coughing for air. "You can fucking have it," I said, "I don't care if you rule the galaxy. Both sides are equally bad. Take it, and let me go home with my son." Pennywise glared at me, "I'm pleased you're obeying Marie, but I'm afraid it's not that simple." "Then how can you take it?" I asked, holding my neck. "We don't know," Hux butted in, circling to my front, "All we know is we can access it better when you hate each ot--" The clown smacked Hux on the back of the head, "Fucking idiot. Never admit your stupidity." "You used me..again..." I snarled at Hux and went to attack him again. But I couldn't move. He just stood there before me while I was on my knees, grinning to himself. "I have his powers too," He said, smiling to himself, "You can't touch me. Unless, of course, if I want you to." He winked. I screamed in anger. I wish the lightning worked so I could fry them both, but nothing happened. The two of them stood side by side now, grins on both their faces. "Only works when you want to hurt her Marie." said Hux. They both laughed, then suddenly, they were both gone, and I was released from my grip. I had enough of this. Enough of this fucking Misery. I don't care who wins this war. I don't care if Pennywise lives or dies. The only thing that changed now, was to kill Alex to put me out of this misery, out of this fucking bond. Not to bring down the First Order, but just to have her away from me for good. Within 30 minutes, I had retrieved my saber, and snuck onto an X-wing, setting the coordinates to Star Killer base. Once Alex and anyone else who got in my way were killed (even Kylo), I'd take my son and Blake, head back to Earth, leave them with Elias's grandparents, and kill myself. I was done, and so was Alex whether she liked it or not.Enter

HUX 

 "Are we following her?" Hux asked his clown master as they watched Marie take off in the ship? "Yes," said Pennywise, drool dripping from him, "We'll watch them fall, then they will be ours, and so will the bond." "I don't want Alex killed," said Hux angry, "You said I could have her," "Don't worry about that Huxy," the clown replied, smiling devilishly, "Once the bond is mine, I can kill or bring back anyone I want. I won't need fear anymore. And you will be the Supreme Leader of the galaxy. Not just the First Order." Hux smirked