Forever and Always, Kitty Kat

Chapter Thirteen: Katniss's POV

I scream as I wake up from a nightmare. Someone comes running in the door and I quickly go for my knife that is under my pillow, "hey it's okay it's just me." I lower the knife, "it's okay I'm okay it's just nightmares." Peeta nod, "I get them too." I looked up into his eyes knowing that I've killed more people then Peeta he properly kill 1 where as I killed so many more.

I get up and go to the eating area and Peeta follows me. We see Haymitch, "ah the lovers have come to watch me drink so I'm not alone I'm touched really." I sat down, "Snow is never going to believe we are in love no matter what we do." Peeta sat down beside me, "unless we get married." I turned to him, "what?" I stared at him and he looked to Haymitch then back at me, "well we are going to be on this train forever right so it's probably going to happen at some point right." I stood up, "yeah while you're at it do you want to knock me up too!" I threw a glass at him and stormed away.

-2 days later-

Right now I'm dancing with Peeta at the Capitol's party. "People in 12 are starving but the Capitol has so much food they just throw it up to have more," Peeta growled softly so no one would hear. "Are you really surprised it's the Capitol," I said and then a man tapped me on the shoulder. "May I have a dance," a man with blonde hair asked and Peeta stepped back. The blonde older man smiled, and we started to dance, "congratulations on your engagement Miss. Everdeen." I frowned, "who are you?" I asked and he smiled, "Plutarch Heavensbee I am the new game maker taking after Seneca Crane."

"Tough act to follow," I said, and Effie came up to us, "manners Katniss. Plutarch good to see you," Effie said, and the blue eyed man smiled, "and you Miss. Trinket." Snow soon set off fireworks and I looked to him, and he shook his head and I felt my blood run cold. I didn't convince him. I got fucking engaged and he still doesn't believe me. I need to run. He'll kill everyone I love if we don't run. I tortured myself trying to be in love with Peeta and I got nothing from it. All I want right now is Johanna. I want to be in her arms as she runs her fingers threw my hair calling me Kitty Kat and saying she loves me until I feel better.

After the party was over I went to my room on the train and then there was a knock at my door, "open up sweetheart." I opened the door and he had a bottle of Whiskey, "I think we could both use a drink." I grabbed the bottle and took a swig. The burning feeling went down my throat and I looked up at Haymitch. "I want my soulmate. I want to be able to hold her hand in public I want to kiss her at the train station but if I do any of that Snow will have her and my family killed just to punished me."

"Now you see why I'm better off without a soulmate. Snow he killed my family because of a accident in the games and having Effie shown as my soulmate. It would get her killed no matter how much I love her I can't."

"I hate Snow."