✔︎ I LOVE YOU SO • heeseung

Chapter 21

October 14th.

8:06 pm

Halloween is on October 31st,

but a ghost decided to show up on my front porch today.

The ghost thought he has some unfinished business with me,

but personally, I'm done with him...

Or... am I?

"What are you doing here, Jay?"

Those were the first words I uttered as soon as I saw his drunken state.

"I miss you, that's all." he groggily told before pushing his hands to my door and welcoming himself in.

I swear, I tried to resist him.

"You can't be here jay! Just what would Jihye think?" I said in disbelief.

How many months has passed ever since this ghost died out of me?

He can't be here, he shouldn't be.

He forced himself to my house again. He...

He forced himself into my heart again.

"I broke up with her." He said as he cupped my face.

"Because I love you."

And he kissed me.

"You're mine Mirae, you always were. And I'm yours, I always was."

"Mirae. If you just let me, I'll give everything to you. I— I love you too much to let you go."

Those sweet words, I knew they were lies.

But why do I find myself kissing him back?

Why am I succumbing to his lies?

The bitter taste of alcohol.

I let it sink into my tongue as I continued to press my lips against Jay's.

These soft lips I was always addicted to,

those sharp eyes that always gazed by my direction,

and this man, who never failed to intoxicate me.

I was slowly being put into a slumber of need.

But then, Jay suddenly pulled away

and the next thing I know,

he was sleeping by my couch soundly—

as if the kiss we shared was nothing.

As if... I was nothing.

Alone, with a fast-beating heart, I watched him take gentle breaths.

As my hand brushed his soft blonde locks, I continued to look through every feature in his face.

The smell of strong alcohol mixed with his musk perfume is a new addiction,

and I didn't realise I was leaning to plant a gentle kiss on his forehead until I was already doing so.

Hawk-like eyes, sharp nose, and soft pink lips,

He looked so peaceful and innocent while he slept, he was like a pure angel.

But I know better when this angel is awake.

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I cupped his face and soothed my thumb over his soft cheeks.

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"Jay... why do you keep on doing this to me?"

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