✔︎ I LOVE YOU SO • heeseung

Chapter 22

October 14th.

11:02 pm

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Should I answer you?

Or should I not?

Right at this very moment, you've been trying to call me.

My phone continuously vibrates at my hand,

while I look beside me.

Jay is peacefully sleeping beside me.

It's a normal occurrence for you to call me in the middle of the night,

and you will always bother trying to make sure I was okay.

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With my index finger,

I finally answered your call.

"Hey, Heeseung." I whispered,

careful not to wake the sleeping boy by my couch.

"Rae Rae, why are you whispering like that?" You wondered, and it caught me in panic.

We are nothing but friends,

there is nothing else between us that's not platonic,

So, why?

Why do I feel like being with Jay right now means that I'm cheating on you?

"Oh– I-.." I struggled to find an excuse, and just as a horrible lie came to my mind,

I immediately uttered it mindlessly.

"I think there's a burglar in my house."

Oh, fuck me.

"Wha—" you tried to question further, but before you could even do that, I hung up.

What in the hell was that kind of excuse?

That's the most messed up lie I told, and it's the first one I've ever told to you.

I sighed heavily and shook my head in disappointment.

"Who was that?" a raspy voice uttered.

Startled, I jolted back...

only to realise that my carefulness didn't do anything as my voice awakened Jay.

ㅤHe stood up and reached for my arm, guiding me to stand up with him.

All the things that happened earlier have resurfaced.

I can't face him now—

Not now that he regained his senses.

He probably forgot about the kiss,

he probably doesn't know why he's here,

He probably...

didn't mean what he said to me.

"Mirae.." He called, but it only made me look away.

I can't bear the pain he's about to bring right now.

Because this is the time he'll ask me about what happened,

this is the time he'll say sorry for something he couldn't remember,

this is the time that—

"You still love me, right?"

"the kiss earlier... it meant something to you too, right"

He repeatedly asked me as his hands cupped my face, forcing me to look him in the eye.

He was breathtaking, just as always.

I was surprised that he remembered—

Wait, no. I'm not just surprised...

it's not that I'm just shocked..

It's something else,

something more.

I...

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I was happy.

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"Yes, I still love you, Jay."

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