November 27th
1:30 am
It's been 44 days without you, Lee Heeseung.
I can't believe I'm even counting it.
You have not been in my life for a month and a half.
And honestly...
I– I can't take it.
Ever since you saw Jay and I,
you stopped your late night calls that I've always anticipated,
you don't surprise me by coming to my home with ramyeon and snacks on your hands anymore,
and you didn't answer my calls and messages like how you used to in a span of milliseconds.
Yes, Jay has been taking care of me.
He'd take me to dates like how you always take me to 'friendly' ones.
He'd come and sleep at my house like how you always do.
And he'd lend his shoulders to cry on just like you always lend your whole chest and shirt to dampen with these tears of mine.
But even if he does these things like how you do too,
there's something wrong...
Perhaps,
It's because he is not you.
You would never decline my calls.
You give me your time to waste on.
You take the effort to know everything about me.
And you prioritise me more than anything.
But he?
He never does those.
You are just my friend,
and he is my boyfriend.
But between you and him,
why does it seem like you have treated me like your role is something similar to his?
and why does he treat me in a way only friends do?
I had to know,
and when I did...
I hated myself for choosing to stay with him
and not rush back to you on October 15th.
Jay never broke up with his girl.
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