✔︎ I LOVE YOU SO • heeseung

Finale

To my best love yet,

Lee Heeseung.

If only I knew from the start that the bright star would cease because of my dark, endless void, I wouldn't have let you in. You fixed me, but why did you have to fix my heart if you're just breaking it again?

I don't understand, Heeseung, I don't know why you did this.

We thought you mend me, but that was just the start. In the end, I just broke you.

We thought your light could shine upon the darkness I've put myself in, but little did we know that it's my darkness that would cover that ever-so-shining glow of yours.

The glimmer of hope, that moment of joy, that spark of love, they were all just an illusion, just to make us believe that we can fix me.

But perhaps, we gave up too early. Perhaps, if we made it through this obstacle we called an end, we might've been happy by now, you might've been snuggled up my chest like you always used to, and I might've been running my hands through your hair like I always used to.

Those were only possibilities that could only happen in a what if that we never got to do.

One last time, I questioned myself. What if it were just my insecurities? What if I just self-sabotaged because deep inside I knew I don't deserve you; You who's precious, someone who's sweet, someone who's got love to give. I don't deserve any of that.

Yet I decide not to ponder too much over it, because it's too late for that now.

Starlit eyes, please don't cry. The stars that glow, it doesn't deserve to fall from cheeks. Be happy, and try not to think of me, and what would've happened if we're still together. Don't be like me, who's living in misery.

Wherever you are right now, do know that I'm forgetting you Lee Heeseung,

Why?

Because I love you so, and if I don't force myself to forget you,

I might never be able to let you go.

From the girl you tried to love,

Yoo Mirae.

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