Our Little Secret (K.Tsukishima x reader)

chapter 18: the hurt

♡y/n pov♡

♡Saturday before training camp♡

I can't believe Hinata. Leaving his water bottle on his bike. Why did he even park it across campus?

As I was walking back to the gym I heard moaning

Damn can you people just get a room or at least don't do it in public

I turned a corner to see something I can never unsee

y/n: "Kyo?" Kyo suddenly separated his lips from the girl that had her legs wrapped around his waist while her back was pressed against a wall

K: "Y-y/n I thought you were in Tokyo with your volleyball team"

y/n: "That's next weekend"

K: "D-don't you have practice right now?"

y/n: "Hinata left his water bottle on his bike b-but that's besides the point. I-" tears formed in my eyes and I couldn't help but run away

K: "Bunny wait!" I kept running "Bunny!" He caught up to me and grabbed my arm "it isn't what it looks like, just let me explain!"

y/n: "Fine explain"

K: "..."

y/n: "Exactly! I can't believe you did this to me! You're cheating on me. What did I do? How long has this been going on?

K: "Huh?"

y/n: "How long has this been going on?"

K: "Eh-"

y/n: "Tendase Kyo. Tell me right now how long this has been going on!"

K: "6 months"

y/n: "S-six months?" my tears began to pour out after he nodded his head. "Am I not good enough for you?" thoughts began to swirl in my mind.

why was he cheating? did I do something? what could I have done? I'm just not good enough for him. I knew from the start that he was too good to be true. But I love him. I can't lose him. He's been there for me and-

K: "Bunny of course you are"

y/n: "Don't call me that! 

K: "come on"

y/n: "Kyo please tell me why. Tell me why you cheated"

K: "Y/n the thing is that there's something that you won't give me that I want"

y/n: "And Gisa will?"

K: "yeah..."

y/n: "what are you talking about. I do kiss you and sometimes I do let you touch me,"

K: "But nothing more, You always say that we'll do it when you're ready but you're taking too long to be ready"

y/n: "So you cheated on me because I'm not ready to lose my virginity?"

K: "We've been together for almost two years. You haven't even made our relationship public"

y/n: "Public? We are public but if you're talking about Kitty public? I'm doing this because If they know it's you then they'll figure out who I am as well."

K: "y/n that's selfish"

y/n: "Selfish? I'm also protecting you"

K: "Well then at least be ready"

y/n: "that doesn't even connect to being Kitty public"

K: "Y/n! You should be ready by now."

y/n: "Kyo, we're only 15! it's normal to not be ready yet!"

K: "but everyone else is having or has had their first time. Does that not bother you?"

y/n: "I don't want other peoples choices to impact mine especially when it has nothing to do with me and something serious like this. Kyo. I don't want to be pressured into having my first time. But I also don't want you to leave... you're all I have. But if that's what I need to do for you to stay..."