Duskwood Forever Mine

Surrender

Jake

She's been quiet, she didn't say anything about me  getting drunk And that was a few days ago . Today was her funeral. She was trying to be strong but i knew she was hurting , i didn't want to be there i really didn't it was too much for me after the funeral i excused myself i need to be alone while walking back to the car her friend Jen walked up to me .

Jen " I'm really sorry , i know mc and i know she don't want to be here "

Jake " i actually plan on taking her somewhere for a few days "

Jen " where "?

Jake " wherever she wants to go "

Jen " well you guys could go to our island ,i already spoke to my parents and plus the island isn't in use it Will be good for both of you "

Jake " thank you I'll think about it "

I left and went back home. It was stifling there. I couldn't breathe properly. I stayed in our room alone for the remainder of the day just sitting there lost in thought .I didn't even hear her come in . She walked over to me

Mc " are you okay "?

Jake " I don't know, are you okay "?

Mc " I don't know either "

Jake " jen offered to let us use the island if you want to "

Mc " Just me and you "?

Jake " yes , plus i could really do with some time away from her and from everyone "

Mc " okay we'll go ,i just  don't know ,i feel like a part of me is lost "

Jake " i feel the same way love "

MC

I didn't want to be here not even around my own mother that's how i felt i wanted to be away  from everyone and everything I just needed time to come to terms with what has happened just make myself fully understand that I will never see her again that she was gone or baby was gone and it had happened it was real . a part of me didn't want to accept that Jen  offered for us to go to the island. I didn't care where I went as long as I was away from here.

Jake

by 3 that afternoon we were on our way to the island  mc was quiet  after we got there and got settled in it was almost 7 in the evening i went and grabbed a shower i found her standing on the beach facing the water the sun was now setting i walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her.she leaned back into me

Mc " please say we'll be okay "

Jake " we will love .what do you want for dinner "?

Mc " hmm I'm not really hungry"

Jake " you haven't eaten for the past few days love , I don't like seeing you like this "

Mc " nether have you "

Jake " Fair enough , can I ask you something princess " ?

Mc " Anything "

What would she say ,i really hope she doesn't say no

Jake " Do you want another child "?

Mc " i don't know , honestly I'm scared what if she does this again "?

Jake " she won't I'll make sure of it love "

Mc " okay "

That was all she said. I took that as a yes. It's Been two weeks since we've been here and in that time she's been acting more like herself ,she started smiling again she lost that haunted look that she had in the time we've been here i haven't touched her and i guess she noticed because she was giving me weird looks we were sitting out on the patio having breakfast and she was looking at me .

Jake " What is it love ? You've been looking at me all morning "?

Mc " Nothing "

Jake " Mc "

Mc " what "?

Jake " I'm waiting "

Mc " why haven't you made love to me yet " , do you still love me ?

What the hell was that what she thought? I had a hard time sleeping next to her and not touching her . She kept walking around half naked all the time which basically had me staying away from her so i wouldn't hurt her.

Jake " because i was giving you time , I don't want to hurt you "

Mc " Doesn't feel that way , feels like you're avoiding me "

She stood up and threw the napkin down and walked away. What the hell. I went after her

Jake " mc get back here "

Mc " why so you can ignore me ,no I'll go find someone that wants me , maybe phil would be better  "

She was pissed but not more than I was at that moment that shit she just said had ass whipping written all over it .  She was almost to the top of the stairs when I got to her. I grabbed her by the throat  not enough to hurt her but to make her understand .

Jake " if you ever say that shit again you won't be able to walk for weeks"

I picked her up and threw her over my shoulder and carried her into the room and dropped her onto the bed .i was too pissed at her i was pacing the room

Jake " what did you think would happen after you said that shit "?

Mc " jake , you're scaring me "

Jake " good "

She tried to run to the door but i caught her before she even got to it i braced her against the wall

Jake " i won't and i would never hurt you love ,but please don't say things like that "

I wrapped my hands around her throat she just looked at me she was so fucking perfect

I loosened my hand from her throat she was staring at me i don't what she saw but the next minute she was kissing me , this wasn't a normal kiss this was i want you now kiss and i just knew what she was after .how we ended up on the bed with my shirt off i will never know but i couldn't care less i didn't care what happened she was mine and that was all i knew in that moment.