Written In The Stars ☑️

CHAPTER 7

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I am so mad right now!

I roughly opened the door and stormed inside the shop so loud that everybody all turned to me with shocked and curious eyes. I glared at all of them. They immediately looked away, some resumed to whatever they were doing awkwardly. There was a sudden flabbergasted silence inside the room. There was tension. I scared them, but I was too mad to even give a damn.

I walked straight into the office and jaggedly opened the door. I saw Mew talking on the telephone. He looked so surprised when he saw me, his eyes widened in disbelief.

"Gulf..."

I slammed the door shut. He should know how mad I was at the moment. I glared at him. I wanted to scream my anger out but standing in front of him suddenly made me feel like crying. Seeing him made me realize I missed him so bad. My heart started beating fast. Overwhelming rush of emotions filled my senses. I clenched my fist, my lips forming a thin line to stop myself from crying.

"Let me call you back later, I apologize," Mew said on the other line and put the phone down, his eyes never leaving mine. "Why are you here?" he asked as he stood up from his swivel chair.

My lips started to twitch. "Is it true? Are you leaving?" I asked, my voice shaking from fear and anger.

He stopped as his eyes widened again. I saw him let out a gasp as he nervously blinked and gulped.

"Is it true?!" I can't help but shout at him even when I already knew the answer to my question. "Fucking tell me the truth!"

Mew's labored breathing was evident as he blinked back tears. He gulped again and said, "C-can you calm down first? Let me explain –"

"Fuck you!" I shouted, this time, my tears all came streaming down my face. I felt like exploding. My chest was in so much pain. "Fuck you!"

"Gulf!"

"What? You don't want me cursing at you? You deserve it." I told him, my eyes fuming. "You promised me you won't leave. You promised! But what's this? We have an argument and suddenly you're walking away? How about me? What do you think I'll feel?"

Mew started walking towards me but I stepped back. I wasn't done yet. I didn't want him near me or else I'll give in. I couldn't. "I knew something was going on when you suddenly partied overnight in the city. Did you forget again? Is that what you're going to say? I waited all fucking night for you to call or even text me but you didn't. I guess I'm not at all important as you claim me to be."

"That's not –"

I cut him off. "What made you change your mind? Is it Amanda? What, you like her now? You want to be with her?"

"No!"

I scoffed. "I can't blame you, though. She's very pretty. She seems to like you, too. What a perfect match. Fuck you both!"

"Gulf, stop it! Calm down!" Mew was suddenly in front of me, shaking my shoulders, looking at me bewildered. "What's the matter with you? What are you talking about? I don't like Amanda and she doesn't like me."

"Liar!"

"It's the truth! Don't you trust me?"

I looked at him, mockingly smiling in between tears. "Liar. You're always lying to me. How do you want me to trust you if you can't even protect what I feel for you?"

He froze. He looked stunned by what I just said.

I continued. "I guess you really couldn't stomach the fact that your so-called brother likes you. All these years, Mew, all these years I've always liked you. Do you know how hard it was for me to keep it all in? All I wanted was to be with you. Boss is right. I'm too much for you. I'm suffocating you."

He cupped my face. His tears started streaming down his face as well. "That's not true! What are you saying? You sound like I don't care about you at all. I do, Gulf. I do."

"Then why are you leaving?"

He stopped. He just couldn't answer.

That hurt me even more. "Let's stop here, Mew. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. I heard you're moving to the city for good. Leave, if that's what you want. I will not stop you." Then I turned to leave. My chest was in so much pain.

He was quicker as always. He grabbed me and hugged me from behind, his face on my shoulder. He was crying. "Please listen to me. Don't be like this, Gulf. Listen to me first."

I closed my eyes. It hurts but I can do this. I can do this.

"Stop it, Mew. Don't hurt me more than I already am."

"But I'm hurt, too..."

"Then let's stop hurting ourselves. Don't worry about me. I've lived for 19 years without you. I can live another more w-without you too." I choked.

"No! You're misunderstanding me, Gulf." Mew turned me around to face him. His arms were still wrapped around my waist. He didn't let go. When I saw his face, I almost lost it. He looked to heartbroken. "I don't want to leave you. I really don't..."

"You're still leaving. Nothing's going to change."

"Can you just trust me? Can you? Please trust me, Gulf. Please!"

Fuck it! Why am I always like this? Why do I always give in?

I looked at him. His crying state begging me to stay with him is breaking me, too. I really do not like seeing him like this. It's hurting me a thousand folds.

I took a deep breath. "If I ask you to stay, will you stay?" I asked him.

I waited for his answer without blinking.

Again, he didn't.

I removed his hands on my waist. "I don't want to confuse you, Mew. Go and chase your dreams. Forget about me. I'll forget about you, too."

Then I walked out of the room. My tears were still falling nonstop. I had minimum strength left in my system. The workers all looked at me with worried faces as I stormed out of the shop but no one dared say a single thing.

It was all one-sided.

I got betrayed yet again.

I guess this it. This is the end.

But why is my heart against it?

Why do I want to go back and just forget this cruel world together with him?

:(( Hang on tight, sweeties.