Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

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Late July 2016

-Taylors Pov-

I crawl into bed even though it's just 6pm, I just don't feel like doing anything. Olivia climbs into the bed next to me and Meredith lay on the cat bed on the other side of the room, she doesn't care about me but thankfully I have Olivia to cuddle with.

After turning on Friends on the tv I lay on my side and look at Olivia "it's just us from now on, no more boys. I'm done. They only give me trouble" I sigh and talk to Olivia like she knows what I'm talking about. "The two of you are all I need, you're my furry children. It's probably the closest I will ever get to having children so enjoy it kids"

I'm bored out of my mind and the exhaustion is just draining. It's been about a week since I finally gathered up the courage to end things with Tom, he was just more invested in it than me and it would be cruel to string him along further. But he has been blowing up my phone ever since, clearly, he developed feelings for me, but I just didn't feel the same way. Usually, I'm not the one to break someone's heart, but I just can't keep pretending that I'm falling for him, it was just a summer thing, a pallet cleanser of sorts.

-flashback to one week ago-

I'm exhausted as I walk into my empty apartment in New York it's been a long day and I don't want to deal with my life right now. Quickly I slip into lounge wear and slide down on the couch after picking up Olivia and laying her on my lap. The silence surrounds me and it's both nice and depressing at the same time.

As I lay here reflecting my phone goes off and I see it's tom trying to facetime me, and I roll my eyes. He is just head over heels for me and I know I'm not that invested into this summer thing we have going on. Honestly for me it was just a way to get away from Adam, he was just a getaway car.

"hey" I say as he appears on the screen with a big smile on his face "how are you doing darling" he says.

I did decide earlier today that today was the day I needed to crawl my way out of this thing we have, I can't do it anymore. "Tom, we need to talk" I say and look away making sure not to meet his eyes.

"what's going on baby? You can tell me anything. I love you" I want to roll my eyes at that, I don't like it when he calls me that and I have never been able to say I love you back, it doesn't feel right to lie.

Finally, I gather the courage to look at him "I'm so sorry tom but I can't do this anymore. We are in totally different places and see this relationship differently. I'm really not as invested as you and I don't want to string you along any further." I say and take a deep breath.

A look of hurt spread across his face "where is this coming from Taylor, I thought we were fine and happy? Maybe you're not ready for this to be as serious as me but I really do love you"

"I'm sorry but I need to take a step out of this. It's not fair on you and honestly, it's not fair on me either. I can't fake love, it doesn't work like that for me" I argue, I'm not backing down no matter how hard he begs. This is it.

"How about I fly to New York and we can talk about it, I don't want things to end like this baby" he looks hopefully at me.

"No Tom, I'm serious this is over. I can't do this, and I don't want too either. I wish you all the best but don't want to do this anymore" I say and hold my ground. "I'm sorry but I need to go, bye tom" I say and hang up before he can say anything more.

Immediately he tries to call me back, but I don't pick up, I can't do this. And most importantly I don't want to and that's the truth. He deserves someone who can love him back and that's not me.