Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

cruel summer (part 3)

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Almost every day the rest of the summer the routine is the same. I come up with some sort of excuse to leave toms flat and it honestly doesn't seem like he is suspecting anything.

With joe the sex is getting hotter and hotter but there isn't much talking, and I miss that part of our friendship. We have gone from best friends to people who can't get enough of the others body but refuse to have the conversation that needs to be had.

Well, that's until today at least. It's the last day of august, the last day of summer, and tomorrow I'm flying back to New York. Every summer comes to an end, and I don't know where we go from here. I don't know where tom and I are going, but more importantly I don't know where me and joe is going.

I tried to not fall for this guy, I've really tried but I couldn't help but fall heads over heals for him. The problem is that he doesn't talk about his feelings, so I don't know where we stand to be honest. Am I just a good lay for him? Does he want to forget this summer? Or does he want this to continue too? All I know is that I can't keep going like this. My reputation is going up in flames and I just can't deal with this anymore. Also, I need to figure out what I'm going to do about tom because it's just cruel what I'm doing to him. A couple of weeks ago he actually said the forbidden words, I love you, and I haven't been able to say it back.

Eventually both joe and I reach our orgasms and have just been laying intertwined for about half an hour before I get up and start to get dressed again. "Taylor" he starts "yeah"

"What are we doing? You're going back to New York tomorrow, and I don't know where we stand" he says and start to get dressed too. I know this is the conversation we have been avoiding.

After pulling on my clothes again I sit down on his bed and put my head in my hands "I don't know joe. All I know is that I'm exhausted and can't keep going like this. Everything in my life is a mess right now and I don't know anything"

"Let me phrase it differently. What are we? Are we just fuckbuddies? Because I don't want that" his words make me shot up and look at him. "I thought that was what you wanted? Friends with benefits" I ask him slightly confused.

"Me? fuck no. but you're the one in a relationship Taylor. besides there hasn't been much friendship recently, it's just been sex and no conversation" he run his fingers through his hair and sit down facing me.

"I know I know" I sigh "I want out joe. I want out of that situation, but I don't know how. And I don't want this situationship we have to end, but I don't want to just have it be just sex either, I want our conversations back"

"Look Taylor. you have a choice to make. Don't leave London without taking a stand. Me or him. You can't have us both. It's cruel Taylor, to all three of us. But mostly for him, he has no idea about what we are doing."

He is right, it's just cruel. Tom deserves so much better, and this is so unlike me. I'm not the girl to have an affair, that's not me, but it's just something about joe that drags me in like a magnet. "I'm going to break up with him. Tomorrow morning. I can't leave here still being tied to him. But I'm not going to tell him about us, that will just be more cruel"

Standing up I cheek myself out in the mirror and adjust my hair and makeup so it doesn't look too suspicious.

"And us?" joe says with a hopeful tone, and I sigh turning around to face him "joe I don't know. All I know is that I don't want strings right now. But I don't want our situationship to end either. What I want is our conversations back. I want us back. Yeah, I want the sex, but I want our conversations too"

I walk over and push him down on the bed before climbing on top of him and sliding my legs down on either side of his torso and his hands go to my waist. "Pack a bag and meet me at the airport. Come with me to New York" I smile at him before leaning down for a long kiss "if you want this too, come. If not, I understand"