Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

exile (part 1)

-Taylors Pov-

Tonight, he is going to be there, and I've never been this nervous before. It's been over a year for god's sake, but I feel like it was yesterday. We went from being inseparable best friends and lovers to be nothing at all. Everything to nothing went in an instant that day, and nothing has been the same since. Part of me wonder what he is up to these days, but another part of me don't want to know. Is there another woman in his bed? is there someone else he holds close at night at tell them that he loves them? All these things he used to do with me he can now do with someone else. The person I spent just over three years intertwined with is now not even a character in my present.

I've never wanted to attend an award show less than I do tonight, but I'm nominated for a golden globe for my original song in Cats so I don't have a choice. Oh, how I want to cancel, but I know I can't. sooner or later I will end up running into him anyway so might just get it over with right?

Is he constantly thinking about me too? does he think about that day in our London home when everything turned upside down. Does he play our last conversation on an endless loop in his head to the point it drives him crazy? That's what's happening to me. it's hard waking up in the morning and not having him next to me or going to sleep at night when I'm not in his warm protective embrace.

But I know that train is long gone, and I've moved on. I wouldn't even give this a second thought if I didn't know he would be there tonight. Or would I? this guy is still driving me crazy even after so much time has passed, his presence in my life climbed all over me like the ivy's we saw in the lakes on our three-year trip.

"babe?" a voice calls for me from the entrance to my bedroom in la. I've just stripped down to my underwear as I'm about to slip into the floral dress for the golden globes, my makeup and hair is all ready to go already. I smile gently at him as he comes towards me and wrap his arms around my body before pressing his lips against mine.

I've moved on, or back, depending on how you look at it. do I love him? I don't know but he is stable, safe and doesn't play mind games me. Tom found out about the breakup with joe and asked for a second chance, and I gave it to him. That was 6 months ago and here we are. Is our relationship perfect? No but it's safe and stable, he doesn't drive me insane with emotions. The passion isn't there the same way it was with joe, but I don't think I will ever feel that way about anyone ever again. We had something special, and I can't keep pining over what once was forever. That's why I said yes to tom, and we have been together ever since so it was only a matter of time before we went to some event together, he is nominated too so it was only natural we went together.

"yeah" I say and wrap my arms around his neck and smile gently at his handsome face. "I'm almost ready I just need to slip into my dress, are you ready?" I say and he nods "I'm ready. So finish up and we will head off. Are you exited?" he says and gently caresses my face.

I want to tell him the truth, that I would rather walk into ice cold water that attend this event with the risk of seeing joe, but I can't say that. "yeah, I'm excited. Give me like five minutes and I will be out" I say and peck his lips.

We let go of one another and I unclip my bra because I don't need one under the dress and as I go to slip on the dress I feel his eyes on me "What?" I say and laugh slightly. "you're just so beautiful. Especially naked might I add" he smiles at me, and I roll my eyes playfully "well, that's for your eyes-only babe"

I slip into the dress and adjust it in the mirror so it looks alright before going out and joining tom in the car. Tree and tom's publicist is giving us the rundown of how the event is going to go down, but my head is elsewhere. I wonder if he is nervous to see me too? will he talk to me or will he just ignore me? will he bring a date or just attend with his cast? Is he even allowed a date? I don't think so because that's reserved for A-lists I think. Not that I care, I'm with tom and tom makes me happy. Our relationship is simple, and people love us together, there is no drama and I love that.