Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

BAFTA awards 2019

-Taylors Pov-

"Are you exited?" I say gently as I adjust joes' collar while he is on his way to the BAFTA awards where there are several nominations for the movie he was in, The favorite. "Nervous, but yes" he says gently and wrap his arms around my waist and lean down for a kiss while we wait for the car to pick him up.

"I can't believe you turned down the Grammys to meet up with me after" he says and I shrug "this is your first big round with nominations, of course I want to be here with you. I've been to so many Grammys, this is more important to me. besides I get to just be your girlfriend for a night, I don't need to be Taylor swift I'm just there to support you as your girlfriend"

"I'm really happy you're meeting me there" he says and kiss me again before we are alerted that the car is here "I'll see you in a couple of hours my love, as always I will miss you" he says and kiss me again "miss you too, always"

As he leaves, I go into the bathroom to start getting ready myself. Usually I would have my hairstylist, makeup artist and stylist here to help me, but I didn't think I needed that today, I'm not going to walk a red carpet or such, I'm just sneaking into the event to be with him. I'm not even going to the actual award show I'm just meeting up at whatever afterparty joe wants to go to. 

I've never attended an event as someone's plus one so this is thrilling and I don't really know what to expect, all I know Is that I want to keep a low profile. It's not that I want to hide that I'm there, it's just that because of who I am I unwillingly seem to always draw attention even when I don't want to, so I'm keeping as low profile as I can. This is his night, and I don't want to take anything away from him, for once I just want to be a plus one. I wonder what joe thinks about this, if he resents me that I might draw attention just because I'm Taylor swift, but I hope he realize that I just want to be supportive. I know we have had endless conversations about this, but I just can't shake away the guilt that's settled in my stomach. But on the other hand I just really want to be able to attend stuff with him to show him support because I know it calms him down, and he does it for me all the time when I preform so I want to return the favor.

-joes Pov-

The car ride to the event seems endless because the nerves are bubbling up inside me. it's overwhelming and nerve-wracking to be nominated for something so big, I know it's not an individual nomination for me but still it's big. And it makes me happy that Taylor wants to meet up with me at the afterparty instead of going to the Grammys where she is nominated. It makes me feel special and that she really puts our relationship first.

I haven't said anything to Taylor about this, because I know it's eating her up inside, but I'm nervous that it will be made up into a big deal and I will be reduced to just her boyfriend instead of the other way around. It's not that I blame Taylor for it, it's not her doing, but it bugs me sometimes. Whenever there is any headline about anything I do I'm always referred to as her boyfriend and not just as myself and as an actor in my own right. But I can't talk to Taylor about it because I know she feels bad enough about it already and is scared that I resent her for it. it's not her I resent but I resent that the media don't respect me enough to leave my relationship out of it. it's like they don't think I can do it on my own, that I only get roles because I'm her boyfriend. Sometimes I doubt that myself, but then I remind myself that I got a lead role before I even meet her. If anything, I've lost roles because of people's perception of her and that they don't want to favor me, but I know that if I talk to her about it she will be crushed. This all adds up to that sometimes I wish that people would refer to her as my girlfriend and not the other way around.

-Taylor Pov-

I slip into the dress stella let me borrow for the night and I really like it. it's pale blue, almost pastel like, and I've gone for neutral makeup and my hair in a simple but elegant up due. The outfit and styling are sophisticated enough for a black-tie event but not so extravagant that I will stick out hopefully. The nerves are really setting in, but I'm happy for joe because they won several awards and I'm so proud of him.