Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

I knew you'd come back to me (part 2)

(A/N there was a request for a part 2 of this one so I decided to do it. If anyone has any suggestions I'm always open to new ideas)

There is a lot of mature language in this just so people know.

-Taylors Pov-

"Taylor seriously, we can't keep going in circles! Eventually you need to let it go. You're just making it worse by constantly bringing it up" joe says and look at me with a defeated look.

"that's easy for you to say. Your penis was inside someone else, you felt her body, you made her moan. That will take a hell of a lot to get over joe. Whenever you touch me I can't help but picture you fucking her. It makes me want to throw up" I say really loudly but try to keep my composure.

"For god's sake Taylor, I don't even know her name! it didn't mean anything" he says back angrily.

"Okay okay" Augustine our therapist tells us to stop the fight we have been having for the last ten minutes "joe, it's important to acknowledge what Taylor is feeling. But Taylor, if you want to make it work with joe maybe it's time for you to dig deeper into what's really bothering you. you've told me, but have you told joe yet?"

We have been to therapy for three months now, but we keep having the same fights and sometimes we go days without exchanging words at home. I'm really trying to forgive him but it's really hard to imagen trusting him again and I'm scared that I will end up hurt. Also, I can't help but feel insecure that maybe he seeked comfort somewhere else because I couldn't give him what he needed.

"I'm just scared that I'm not enough for you. that we will continue down this road but secretly you want to leave me because other women can give you something I can't. you, more than anyone else, know my insecurities and this is really making them magnified" I say and let tears slide down my face.

There is a long silence and joe doesn't respond so Augustine steps in "now, joe, what do you feel about what Taylor is telling you?" she ushers him to talk.

"I----" he starts but stops again and takes a moment to think "—I'm scared of the same things. I'm scared that you don't really love me anymore and is sticking with me because you feel obligated to try. I tell you I love you constantly, but you don't say it back. I'm sorry you feel the way you do, but just know that no women can give me what you can because they're not you. I know it's hard for you to trust me, but I promise you that you're all I want, I don't want anyone else."

Joe reaches out his hand to maybe give me some comfort as I'm silently sobbing but I shake my head "that's it, that right there. I feel like you're not even giving me a chance to love you Taylor. I can't keep walking on eggshells, it's messing with my head. I don't need much, I don't need you to forget what happened and pretend that everything is back to the way it was, but I do need to know I'm not kidding myself and that you're in this. I need to know that you want me like I want you. I need to know that you still love me" he says and when I look at him I can see tears in his eyes.

"Now Taylor, how does that make you feel. Do you have an answer to joe?" she says, and I brush away my tears and silently reach out my hand to his and we lock our fingers together and I squeeze his hand three times "I'm in this, I just don't know how to get past this" I say honestly, and he gives me a gentle smile.

"I feel like we are finally getting somewhere here joe and Taylor. you've said things to each other that you have only shared in our individual sessions and that's progress. Until next week I want you to work on your communication because not talking makes the tension build and you risk blowouts. Just remember that you now know that both of you are on the same page and that's important. Like I said in the beginning of our first session, couples come to me in two situations. People who really want to make things work, and in situations where one person wants to stay and the other don't know how to leave"