Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

dancing with our hands tied

Warning: mentioning of eating disorder

-Taylors Pov-

I walk down the hallway in workout clothing when I see Joe sitting by the counter drinking his coffee, "I'm just going to the gym. Will be back in like two hours or so" I say and kiss his cheek. "Sure baby, I'll be waiting for you, I only have emails and all that boring crap to do today" he sighs and grab my waist as I'm about to walk away.

He spins me around so I'm facing him, and his arms slide around my waist, and I giggle and drape my arms around his neck "I don't want to be late babe, my trainer is waiting for me" I say but he leans down and plants a passionate kiss on my lips "I know I just wanted a proper kiss before you left.

As we pull away I roll my eyes "you're such a dork" I say and playfully hit his chest before walking out the door "see you later babe" I yell as I close the door behind me.

"There is no paparazzi outside Taylor, so we are good to go" Mike my security guard tell me and I'm happy with that so we quickly make our way to the car. I really can't deal with people seeing me because they haven't gotten a proper picture of me in months and it's been so nice.

I've stopped cardio training a while back, well I do about ten minutes for a warmup to get my blood pumping, but other than that I'm working with a trainer to get my strength up. For the last several months I've really tried to work on my eating disorder because I can't keep going at the pace I was, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt to see my body change. At this point I can't even look in the mirror when I'm naked because I'm scared it will trigger me. Joe says I look stunning, but he is my boyfriend and sort of have to say that you can't exactly in good consciousness tell your significant other that you think they are fat. I wish someone would confirm my suspicion that I've gained too much weight.

The training session goes well, my trainer really pushes me, and I hope this will help with my stamina so I stop feeling like I'm going to pass out every time I preform. "You did really good today Taylor, I'm seeing mayor improvements" my trainer says when we finish up and I'm trying to catch my breath and drink a little bit of water.

"Thanks, I feel stronger too. Thanks for helping me, I really appreciate it" I say and smile at him as I sit down for a little bit before I prepare to leave.

Mike walks over to me and sighs "there is several paparazzi outside, no idea how they found you but they're here. We are pulling the car as close as we can, but they will see you. Do you want to hide or just quickly walk?" he says and I take a deep breath.

They will spot me eventually and it's so annoying to always hide so I think I'm going to just walk quickly, what's the worst thing that could happen. I stand up and answer him "I'll just walk quickly, it's fine"

He nods in response and talk into his earpiece that we are ready to go outside now and I take a couple of seconds to gather myself before I walk out the door that's held open for me.

Immediately I can hear flashes and people yelling at me.

"Taylor Taylor, why have you been hiding?"

"Getting thick Taylor, should watch your diet!"

"Are you pregnant Taylor? Who's the father?"

"Time to go on a diet Taylor"

I'm really trying to block out their yelling but I'm not particularly successful in that. when I get into the backseat tears start to silently flow down my face. I knew I was getting fat, and this is just confirmation on that. and to make things even worse I'm so upset that this is my life and it's just a matter of time before the relationship with joe gets leaked and I ruin him too.