Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

cornelia street (part 1)

-Taylors Pov-

The last month has been filled with all kinds of feelings. My reputation is crumbling around me, so I spend most of my time in hiding in the apartment in renting in Cornelia street. The thing that keeps me going is this friend with benefits situation I have going on with a British sex god. He makes me feel so good that I don't know what to do with myself. But it's not just the sex that's good with him, he is just a good person that I love to have long conversations with for hours. The conversations run nonstop for hours, and we never run out of things to talk about which is refreshing.

The only problem with my sex buddy is that I'm catching feelings, which isn't supposed to happen. You're not supposed to catch feelings for your friends with benefits, that's a heartbreak in the making. This thing we have going on was supposed to be casual fucking whenever we want an orgasm and just be friends for the rest of the time, but again I'm failing miserably on this.

** flashback ***

The summer is turning into autumn which is my favorite time of year. The air gets a crispness to it and the leaves turn into a lovely golden color. The colder weather means that sundresses is exchanged for sweaters and the colors of clothes change to browns and warm tones. The patters change from flowers too plaid and shoes from ballet slippers to ancle boots. It's also an excuse to drink pumpkin spice lattes, pumpkin flavored baked goods and cookies with too much cinnamon because I'm too excited that fall is finally here. there is just so many things I love about this time of year.

So that's why I'm standing in the open window letting the chill fall air hit my body from the window in my Cornelia street rental apartment. It's cold but it feels so nice at the same time. but then there is a figure coming closer to me and draping a jacket over my bare shoulders. "you will catch a cold Tay" joe says, and I see it's his jacket around me. we stand there in silence and let the feeling of fall sink in.

"I love fall" I say and sigh before I turn to him "oh I know you do. didn't you write a whole album about all the fall things. And then you insist on constantly baking things with pumpkin" he says and chuckle before gently tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. Every time he touches me it sends shivers through my body, and I don't understand what I'm going to do about all these things I'm feelings about him.

Our summer situationship friends with benefits situation seems to be carrying on into the new season and I don't know what I feel about it. there is so much about my life right now that are so up in the air and complicated, but he seems to want to stick around. It's gotten to a point where I know rationally that I'm catching feelings for him, but I also know he isn't catching the same feelings and that the sees me a s a friend that he occasionally gives orgasms.

** end of flashback ***

My problem is that I don't know where he stands when it comes to me at this point. He is staying here because there is no point in him staying in a hotel when he is just here to be my casual friend, but we stay in separate rooms, so we don't cross a boundary. For a friends with benefits situation to work there has to be rules, and our rules are no cuddling and no kissing outside of sex. So, for the last month he was been taking my jet back and forth to his home in London but spending a lot of time here with me.

Every time he leaves however I feel this intense jealousy of the girls he has at home. There is no way in hell he doesn't have a girl there he sleeps with too and that makes me jealous. I'm not supposed to get jealous because we are just casual fuck buddies, but again I'm failing on that. I wonder if he makes them moan his name too, and if they touch him better than I can. In my head there is no one that can touch him like I can, but I'm afraid that there is someone else he is falling for back home.