Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

this changes everything forever

-Taylors Pov-

"Babe, I'm going for a run" joe says and come over to me on the couch and give me a quick peck on the lips "love you" he says against my lips, and I smile "love you too. Be careful"

We are in our London townhouse at the moment, we have spent quarantine between our LA house, Nashville and our London townhouse. For the first several times we were stranded in LA because that was where we were when the lockdown where declared, but now it's June 2021 and we are staying in London for a while. The last several years of being together we have every so often traveled between our properties because being in the same place for a long time is a security risk for me.

As he makes his way out the door I have no reason to not do what I know I need to do. What I'm about to do will change things forever regardless of what the outcome is. I've been suspicious for a couple of days as I've been sick a lot and just really exhausted so I knew there was a slight chance that something was going on.

Obviously, I can't go into a store and buy what I need, that would be an instant tabloid story and I really try to stay out of those magazines as much as I can. Early on in our relationship we decided to keep tings private and not give the media an inch of our private life to talk about, and it has worked. Every story that gets out is mostly false, I mean right now they are talking about joe planning to propose, but we have been married since January 2020 so they are clueless. The date for the wedding was a good call because it was really close to the world shutting down and we would have had to postpone it if we decided on a summer wedding.

I walk over to the stairs that lead into the basement apartment that my security stay in and take a deep breath before opening the door and picking up the bag that is sitting on the first step. My security was kind enough to go to the shop for me and buy what I needed. It's sad that this is how my life is, but I can't really complain because I have chosen this, I could have stopped putting out music and not disappear when things started to pick up for me all those years ago, but I didn't and that was my choice. Most of the time I'm okay with that but on days like today I'm not, and honestly it's okay to feel like that sometimes. I'm not ungrateful for the life I live, I have economic security that most people can only dream about, I have a job I love so much that most of the time doesn't even feel like work. There is so much about the life I have created that I love, but the lack of privacy and not being able to go outside and do normal things is the downside I've had to get used to.

As I close the bathroom door behind me I take the test out of the bag with shaking hands, they got me three of them and they are all different brands to make sure it's as accurate as possible. I've never been this nervous before, not even when I step on a stage in a stadium with 100.000 people watching my every move. How can one little plastic stick make me this nervous?

I pee on all the sticks and set them down on the counter before sitting down on the closed toilet and turning on an alarm on my phone for two minutes. My head is resting in my hands, and I start to panic slightly.

I've always wanted a family but before I meet joe I hadn't met a guy I could picture myself starting a family with. Joe was a fresh breath of air when he walked into my life that day at the MET gala even though we barely exchanged any words. And it was like a golden string pulling us together when we meet again at gigis party and really hit it off and instantly became friends. Just thinking back to the early days of our relationship I can't help but let a smile creep up on my lips with the memories flowing through my head. If someone had told me I would be here almost five years into the relationship, married and possibly pregnant I wouldn't have believed them for a second.

There was a point in my life where I decided that true love didn't exist, it was just the idea of something beautiful, but it wasn't a reality. Maybe it was real for other people, but I felt like I was meant to either spend my life alone or in a relationship where I didn't feel the kind of deep unconditional love that others rave about. That was until I met joe and feel harder and faster than I ever could have imagined. He is the love of my life and I believe everything that has happened in my life is knots along the golden string leading me into his strong arms.