Cornelia Street - Jaylor one-shots

I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover

-Taylors Pov-

I've never been this nervous for anything in my life, not even when I stand on a stage in front of 100 000 people singing and dancing. This is different, its vulnerable and personal. So that's why I find myself tossing and turning in bed alone trying to get comfortable but with no result. Eventually I cave and call the one person that can calm me down, hopefully he is awake.

"Taylor? you okay? It like 3am" a sleepy joe talks into the phone; I probably woke him up.

"I'm sorry to wake you. I just can't sleep so I'm going crazy over here. I want to be in your arms" I say, and sigh and I hear him chuckle.

"I know you sleep better with me there. But it's just one night and then you will be back in my arms love" he says, and I know he is right, but this time it's different. The next time we are in each other's arms we will be married.

"I know I just miss you" I sigh and lay my head back down on the pillow. "I miss you too love. but we will see one another in the matter of hours and then we will be together for the rest of our lives"

"okay. I love you, we should get some sleep" I say and close my eyes. "I love you too Taylor, always" he says, and we hang up. Even though it would be better if he was here at least I'm a little calmer now.

***

I'm sitting in a chair having my makeup and hair done by my makeup and hair people while I talk with my bridesmaids and my mom. Thankfully they're here to keep me company and my nerves in check.

My bridesmaids are Brittney, selena, Blake and my maid of honor is Abigail. I was thinking between Brittney and Abigail since I was Brittney's maid of honor, but it made sense to have Abigail. Blakes kids are the flower girls because after all I'm their godmother so that made sense too. they will be so cute in their little white dresses with a pale pink ribbon in their hair.

It was hard finding the right dress for me because I didn't know which way to go. But vera vang was kind enough to costume design a dress for me. it's a sweetheart neckline and a princess like skirt, actually it's a lot like the dress I wore in the "I bet you think about me" music video. I really loved that dress so we decided on something similar but not an exact copy, because I wanted this dress to be a dress that is just for this event.

"you look beautiful Taylor" my mom says and dries a couple of tears and I grin from ear to ear "thank you" I say as I step out of the chair and go sit down on the couch with everyone else, we have a little bit of time before I need to get in the dress.

"you nervous?" selena asks and I shrug. Honestly I am, what if this is a mistake? What if we will end up divorced? After all about half of all marriages end in divorce, my parents are one of those couples so I'm scared that it will happen to us too. and I'm scared that joe will get cold feet and run out of the venue, I don't think it will happen but it's still a possibility. On the other side who is to say that I won't have a panic attack and run out? it feels vulnerable to stand up there in front of our friends and family and express our love for one another. "yes, a little. How could I not be?" I say and sigh.

"nerves are completely normal Taylor, it's a big step. But you love him, and he loves you" Britney says and rub my back and I know she is right. I remember years ago I had this exact same conversation with her on her wedding day.

We have done everything we can to keep this wedding a secret for the public and so far there hasn't been a single leaked story. It was important for us that this stayed private because it's not about anyone but the two of us. Because of my job it's hard to keep something big secret but thankfully we have managed to do it. it's not that I want to hide the fact that I am married from my fans, but it's the tabloids invasive nature I am trying to escape from. Eventually will reveal that I am married but I don't have a set plan for it. it's a balancing act between wanting my fans to know but at the same time not wanting people who aren't fans to know.