strangled

⁶⁴the cherished note

DEAR TOUYA TODOROKI,

I'm sorry, if you're reading this it's too late.

You may be guessing that I have taken my own life, and you're correct with your assumptions. Please believe me when I say that I didn't want to leave you. I really, really didn't want to at all. I wanted to be with you when you became a father more than anything else. I wanted to see you grow alongside our daughter and become the man you have always wanted to be. I wanted to live with you as your wife. I wanted to admire my husband every time I saw him. I wanted to smile with you every morning we woke up in bed together with our child-our addition to our little family-sleeping between us so calmly and peacefully.

I wanted to feel your strong arms around me as you held me so tight while we slept. I wanted to continue training you to use your quirk so your body could finally get accustomed to your overwhelming yet beautiful blue flames. I wanted to prove my love for you more and more everyday through my kisses, my touches, the way we make love... because you deserve it all, Touya. You have always deserved it all. However, that won't be able to happen now.

I'm so, so, so sorry.

As I write this, all I can do is cry because of what I'm about to do. I don't want to leave the love of my life and my newborn baby. But I have no choice. This is what I have to do to keep both of you safe and happy. You just received a second chance at life, I couldn't allow myself to take it away from you.

After I gave birth to our beautiful little girl, my father called me into the generation's quirk. After all these years, he finally explained the drawback to the quirk. There is only one, but it's more devastating than even the strongest man can handle.

My quirk is nothing less than greedy. It gives its user a lot of power, sure, but it also only sees its user-and the people connected to them-as nothing more than vessels.

It gives the user a goal to accomplish. While it may seem as though the quirk is doing that for the user's good, it's really just being selfish. It latches onto people and things that would make the user accomplish their goal then, once the goal is completed and the quirk gets moved onto its next vessel, the quirk proceeds to murder the person that helped the goal get accomplished because it no longer has a need for the person anymore, nor it's previous holder. It alters reality in a way that's absurd, and I can't explain it in full detail even if I tried. My quirk will always be a mystery to me.

Touya... if I didn't kill myself, you would have died sometime during the next five years. It could have been tomorrow, it could have been five years later on this day. It could have been the minute after you met your child. The only way you could continue to live and be apart of our daughters life is if I became no longer existent. The only way you could become the man you wanted to be is if I was no longer around.

My quirk manipulates the fate of people's lives connected to mine.

The drawback was the reason why my mother died.

It was the reason why my grandmother died.

It was the reason why my great-grandfather died.

It was the reason why my great-great-grandmother died.

Even though Endeavor killed my mother, the quirk planned for that to happen; for my mom to die a tragic death. So, in reality, Enji Todoroki was being used by the quirk as well. All of the Todoroki's were, including you. And, unintentionally, I was using you all too. Because my quirk forced me to.

My father killed himself because he knew my mother would be murdered because of his quirk, and the fact that he was never allowed to tell her the danger her life was in after giving birth to me ate away at his composure. His guilt is what killed him, not Endeavor's actions.

I won't allow my daughter to be deceived like I was. Touya, please, as soon as our daughter gets her quirk I want you to tell her the truth about her generation's quirk and what it does. However, be careful when you tell her. I really want my daughter to know the whole truth, but there's no way she can know the drawback to her strongest quirk and continue to live a happy life once she's found out. I want what's best for her. I want her to enjoy life more than I ever did. Please, take good care of her as well as yourself.

We have been through so much, my love.

Those memories we shared are still prominent in my mind as I write this, and they will continue to be once I'm in my eternal afterlife. You're amazing. You're perfect. Don't ever forget that. I'm yours and you're mine, that will never change.

Don't think that I'm abandoning Reina. I will always be here for her inside my quirk. If you need to talk to me about anything, don't hesitate to tell her so she can speak to me about it whenever I call her into our quirk. Don't think I won't be watching over you. I will kiss you to sleep every night, I promise. I know you'll be able to feel when I touch you. The connection between us is too strong for you to not be able to feel my presence near. Just know, I'll always be here for you. Always.

So, please remember, I love you and I love our daughter.

You deserve the world, Touya.

For the rest of eternity you will be in my thoughts, my love.

WITH IMPERISHABLE LOVE, (F/N) TODOROKI.