FELIX ONESHOTS! (bxb)

I Can't Stop Thinking About You (CHANGLIX)

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Continuation from the 'Stop Asking Me to Stay' CHANGLIX chapter

He pressed on the button to stop the music that was playing. He sighed to himself as he sunk into the chair and kept his head up, staring at the ceiling as he let his thoughts consume his mind.

He did it again; he made another song about him.

"Fuck...," Changbin buried his face in the palms of his hands as he let out another pained sigh.

It's been almost a year since the breakup. Almost a year since they last talked; almost a year since he had last seen him in person.

He hasn't seen Felix, yet every corner he turns he could see him.

A lot of things have changed; Changbin still has the apartment that they shared, the memories of them would sometimes, or rather, all the time would pop up whenever he was at home. Could he call it a home? Or was it just a place for him to have a roof over his head?

Either way, it didn't feel the same.

Spending time alone, without the younger with him, made him think a lot. It made him realize the little things that the other male had done for him, made him realize just how much the freckled boy loved him; he realized just how much he had lost.

He missed the sweet smell of fresh brownies that would linger in their home; he missed the late-night movies in their home; he missed home-cooked meals that the younger would do; he missed the cuddles; he missed his kisses, he missed his hugs, he missed his voice.

He missed a lot of things.

But he misses Felix the most.

Changbin couldn't even go out without being reminded of the freckled boy. He would always find a way to appear in his head without his permission- showing him the memories that they shared; the feelings that were there.

He knew it was wrong to go on secret dates with Hyunjin behind Felix's back; the heavy feeling in his heart would always tell him that whatever he was doing was a huge fucking alarm. He didn't know what he was thinking- he didn't know why it even happened.

He wasn't sure why he suddenly got interested in Hyunjin- maybe it was because he was really pretty; but then, Felix is pretty too.

Maybe it was because Hyunjin stood out a lot from the crowd; but then Felix stood out as well.

Maybe it was because Hyunjin was different...yeah, he was different.

He made Changbin feel things he never felt before, things that Felix didn't even make him feel. That's why he was so interested, but it doesn't justify what he had done.

But as he went out with Hyunjin, even after his breakup with Felix, he felt many other things. He felt conflicted, compromised. The feeling he had with Hyunjin was unknown, and that's what got him hooked on. It even got to a point where he made a song about it, about his feelings for Hyunjin.

He thought maybe he was looking for something new; that this feeling with Felix was getting too old and he needed something else, something different. Thus, Hyunjin comes into the equation. The taller gave him exactly what he wanted; something new.

But his heart was begging for someone else.

Whenever he would stare into Hyunjin's brown eyes, he would be reminded of someone else that had the same shade; whenever he looked at the taller's face, he would be reminded of someone that had cute dots splattered across his cheeks; whenever he kissed Hyunjin, his mind would imagine of lips that were from someone else.