lost between the lips of emotions✨

self love

Love comes in different colors , names sometimes it's a thing some others it's a person , period of time related to a happy memory .. we all grew up believing that love is pure and happy , warm and safe but here comes life to teach us how painful can it be , how a beautiful moment that made you smile and believe for a sec can turn into a reason why you just want to end it all .. end your entire existence . Love can be addicting to the point where you can't function without the things you admire , the blanket that made you feel safe since childhood and the person who made you get butterflies for maybe a year and a month ? Maybe an eternity of joy that became an endless loop of misery .
Do I believe in love may you ask ? Or let me change the question for you what do I think about it ?
As someone who reads a lot , writes a lot , playing with words can be a passion of mine.
We can talk sometime about anything that I know nothing about and still make you feel that I'm in love with it , you would totally see it in my eyes how much I'm obsessed with it , but the truth is I can fake things we can fake everything and control everything even our emotions . So what is love and does it control us ?
Let's say us human are suckers for feelings , we like attention and we like to feel important like we have a purpose in life . When we get what we are reaching for , we feel satisfied and we ask for more , more attention more joy , more pain , physical connection , anything that makes us feel alive , peace a little bit of danger or maybe a lot of it ... But when it all comes to an end we feel hopeless and betrayed , like we mean nothing to this world , insecure and useless .. we miss what we had .. and we give it a way to control us ..
Self worth , self love should take the lead to control you me and everyone else
Here's an example cookies are great sweet and makes us feel happy but the ingredients of it may be too bad for the long-term health
We may love the taste of it but we surely should reduce our daily dose of it for the sake of our physical and mental health , because we care about ourselves .. because self love is the leader here ..
Life is too short to waste it stuck inside a dark tunnel of toxic relationships , trying to prove yourself for the wrong people , trying to find a purpose .. when all what we should is appreciate the little things about ourselves , romanticize the relationship between the I and the ME .. in the end of the day we all know that we're going to die anyway so lead your own way and choose your destiny ..