I cried
Since I was nine
And before that
Because of a man
Who never tried
To be a dad
My bad
I wanted to be enough
To have one
But it seems like I'm the only one
Who cared
I'm tired
Of trying to seem enough
Of trying to be enough
For a man who was abscent
And never cared enough
And somehow
I became him
Abscent
Angry
A little too much sad
Way too bad
My bad
That I dreamed of a dad
Till I became one
No one can hurt me
Because of him
And it's not because
He's protective over me
It ain't because he cares about me
But it's the results of the way how
He damaged me
Nothing can cut deeper than that
He didn't understand
That the poison he put in me
Was so strong
That I lived a life
Drunk out of it
Without a sip of alcohol
I couldn't fall in love
Because I saw his face
In all the men I meet
And I felt my mom's tears
Dripping down my cheeks
She'v always been
Warning me
From men
Because the way how he hurted her
Was so dad like
He's way too painful
He didn't just cheat on her
He cheated on everyone
Who looked at him
With the I love you eye
Now I look at the woman he choose
And I asked myself
"Was he saw in her that was worth giving up on me"
And yes I'm selfish
I didn't think about anyone else
But myself
I've always been selfish with him
But he didn't care less about me
He came back
Like they all do
Touching all the weak spots
While asking for forgiveness
And as any simple woman in love
Mom forgave
Now we living under the same roof again
But all I see in his face is
The pain I felt when he left
And the hope that little girl I was had
And he broke
He came back
Asking for forgiveness
Asking for what we had
A family of lies
While we all cry in silence
But smile to each other
I'm done with that
I'm done with trying to impress you
I'm done with crying alone
I want him to cry
Just like I did
Because the way how he ruined me
Can't be forgotten
And I still have it's scar on me
Now I want the house walls to bleed
It doesn't feel like home to me
It doesn't allow me to breathe
Being where he at
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PoetryI'm bad with beginnings , introductions and endings I'm everything stuck in the middle I'm the part where people cry the most in the movies I'm a twenty years old crisis I'm the middle of a mess with words stuck in her throat tryinna free them in h...
