lost between the lips of emotions✨

kill this feeling

Sometimes it feels like tomorrow will never come and the end is already here .. we crave love and affection even from stranger..we just want to fill in the empty scar we have from that old love , feelings , heartbreak... That cold endless hole s destroying our beautiful universe eating the stars of our milky way making us something we are not .. now we look like nothing but a dead body waiting for his funeral or maybe someone to save him .. but who s brave enough to touch something as broken as me ? .. I can do nothing but hurt everything I touch .. I can't even see the good in things nothing makes happy or even sad .. that's how we feel .. an endless toxic trauma of a broken heart and a sad soul .. real word scares us a lot .. because at that point personally I can't take no more of blesures .. would I go for another friend ? I don't think so .. I'm in the stage where I know many people but I don't care about how they behave or what they're thinking about .. I just want to fill in that empty space you know.. would I go for another love ? .. well I'm not going to risk somebody's heart to save mine .. also im not ready to get hurt again and again..my first made me scream , cry , fall appart and get myself back together to survive alone after years of being together.. and if it happens again and I get lost in another heartbreak.. I'm not going to scream .. not even cry .. I'm gonna just walk away with a broken smile of someone who ll never believe in love .. what's the point of doing all of that again .. ? If in the end of the road it will tear me appart.. but right now I can say that after all of this I've found myself.. I knew how far I can go and how I'm able to work under such bad conditions.. I've learned how to smile while my mind is screaming n his own .. I've learned how to make better choices and I stopped myself from using innocent people to pay old bills.. I've been through hell , fire , where everything pushed me down .. but .. I came up as an angels with beautiful wings and purest heart who still believe in things that broke him before .. now I would like to meet someone who will love me as much as I do .. someone who will hug my tears before my body .. I would give him my soul if he asked for it .. someone who is not scared of his feelings.. or of mine .. I had a dream where someone came up to me with a yellow letter I smiled it felt so real when he kissed my lips saying that everything would be okey and that I'm going to meet him again .. thn I woke up with hope shining through my eyes .. the end will never come .. even if I died today .. my stories, words , memories will stay living in everyone I know.. my sparkling hope will shine in the endless sky and every stranger's heart .. I will be here living forever .. with all what I have .. to kill this feeling.. before it ends me ..