Nanon, the son of the richest clan in Oregon had been living his life in the past for 17 years. Patiently waiting for that little boy who captured his heart. When he felt like destiny wasn't in his favor anymore, he finally gave up waiting until tha...
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I don't have any idea if what I am about to do is a great idea or not, but I know that I don't want to lose Nanon that way - for him to become rogue and whatever that is in their world. Without anyone saying anything, I perfectly understand that I was indeed the driving force for him to feel that he was rejected. Not being able to understand the situation that I was in at that time, and not being able to tell him directly what was running inside my head was already equal to him being rejected. But the truth is that, I didn't reject him - yes, I was confused but I know that I don't want him to be away from me. Nor I don't want him to be apart from me all the days of my life. I know that it's selfish to think now that everything is truly a mess but that doesn't mean that I will not fight for what I truly feel.
What do I truly feel for Nanon? Do I love him the way that he loves me? Or was I just feeling guilty after hearing the truth from Dark? Or was I scared that he would really kill me sooner or later? What is it that I really want from him in the first place? Dark told me that I wouldn't be seeing the same Nanon later, what does that suppose to mean? And so if I do not meet the Nanon that I have known, will I cower in fear again?
What is it that I truly want from him?
Just as these unnecessary thoughts start to crowd my mind, the car goes on a halt so both Dark and I unbuckle our seatbelts and step out of the car. It's still albeit chilly but I managed to wrap myself with Nanon's coat before deciding to drive back here at the packhouse, as Dark mentioned earlier.
"Where is First?" I ask Dark while we are traversing the winding entrance.
"He's at home."
"When will you tell him about...you?" I ask. Fairly curious about how Dark would handle telling my best friend about them - werewolves.
"Once everything is settled here, I will visit me. And please, don't tell First about this yet. I want him to know about me from me, and not from someone else. Please."
I nod in understanding. "I will not. Don't worry. Let's just hope for the best for the two of you."
"Thank you. I promise you that I will tell him the truth after all of these, I just need to ready myself, Chimon. And Nanon needs me now, so I cannot afford to experience heartbreak yet."
Without any more words coming out from both of us, Dark finally opens the door for the living room and true enough - the tension is high and the whole family is around. They turn to look at me with those shocked expressions all over their faces, who wouldn't be after seeing me? I suddenly feel so small and vulnerable in front of them - now more than ever, I can feel the amount of gap from me, a mere human, and from them - werewolves. Nonetheless, Lilly runs to where I am standing and offers me her warm embrace as I settle on the crook of her neck.
"Chimon...you're here," she says whilst sniffling and it is my turn to give her back slight pats to calm her down. "How are you doing, Chimon? I heard that you didn't go to school for days? Did you eat well?" She says all the while brushing her soft thumb on my face and I nod.
