It's only him {Kagehina Book}

Chapter 4

𝗛𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗮'𝘀 𝗣𝗼𝘃

I slowly woke up. Ahh... I have a headache. I slowly got up on my knees. I slightly rubbed my head. I got up on my legs. They were really weak. I looked into the mirror. My head was red in some spots. Probably because I was physicaly beating myself up. I heard that someone came into the toilet. Fuck. I tried to stay as quiet as posibble. I heard that someone tried to open doors. Oh crap, my doors weren't looked. I looked at that "𝑺𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆". Deep blue eyes looked exactly into mine. I gulped. I noticed black raven hair... It's 𝒉𝒊𝒎.

"Hinata? Wha-What's wrong??" Kageyama looked very worried. He noticed my red spots on my head, my puffy eyes, and thank God he didn't notice my bleedy arms. They were already stopped from bleeding, but still you could see some blood stains on the floor, and on my sleeves. But thank God I had my long sleeved shirt on. They realy hid my scars well, of course it would be better if there weren't any blood stains on them.
"I- I'm good... Kageyama...." I whispered.
"No you're not. You were crying, and your head is red. Tell me why." Kageyama's voice was calm, but his face was full of worry. I looked at the ground, trying to avoid eye contact.
"I... Nothing happened." I said.
"𝐿𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝐻𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑎, ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝐻𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑑𝑖𝑑 ℎ𝑒? 𝑁𝑜. 𝑆𝑜 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑖𝑚? 𝐻𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔."
Yes... You are right...
"Hinata look at me." Kageyama took my chin and made me look him into his blue eyes. I slapped his hand away.
"I said nothing happened!! Stop questioning me already!! Don't you even try to act like you CARE, CAUSE YOU DON'T. IF YOU DID YOU WOULDN'T BE SO DISTANT, YOU BITCH." I screamed at him looking right into his eyes trying hardest not to break down.

Kageyama looked like he was taken away. He scoffed and took some steps backwards.

"Don't even try to look traumatized, you little shit. Do you really think I care? I don't. Sugawara only told me to keep my eyes on you, if it wasn't him, I wouldn't be here. I DON'T FUCKING CARE. And about ignoring and keeping my distant from you, you know why?" I felt as my eyes filled with water. Not again... please stop Kageyama... Don't say anything... It's not true...
"It's because YOU ARE SO FUCKING ANNOYING. I HATE EVERYTHING IN YOU, YOU JUST ARE SO DAMN ANNOYING. JUST.. JUST SHUT UP ALREADY. YOU PISS ME OFF, JUST DOING ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD. YOU KNOW WHAT? JUST GO AND KILL YOURSELF ALREADY IF YOU ARE THIS "TRAUMATIZED"." My eyes widened at this... No way.... please stop... it-it's not true...
"Shut up". I said quetly one tear already dripping off my face. Kageyama didn't said anything he left without saying a word, just stopped in the entrance.
"Pathetic, slut." He whispered and left. I breaked down on the floors, and just screamed. I hate this. I hate everything. 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝑲𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒚𝒂𝒎𝒂. How could he. He said to me that I should kill myself. Let's see if you will be happy.
"𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐾𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑦𝑎𝑚𝑎 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝑃𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐, 𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑘... 𝐻𝑒 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡. 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝐷𝑜 𝑖𝑡. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑜. 𝑆ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑘, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐."
I wiped my tears away. Okay I will do it. In home, cuz I don't wanna anyone to save me, and my dad won't gonna so yea.

After I stopped crying I took razor blade and started cutting again. This time both of my arms. I hate myself. I really do.

𝗞𝗮𝗴𝗲𝘆𝗮𝗺𝗮'𝘀 𝗣𝗼𝘃