The Girl Glader (Updated, edited and revised version)

THOMAS!! MINHO!!

I wake up, to the bustling sounds of the Glade. I hear the hammers on nails from the Builders, the digging of shovels from the Trackhoes and thelaughing of Gladers all around the Glade. I stretch, causing the blanket on me to drop to the ground and slowly stand up, hearing every bone in my back crack. I look around. It looks like everybody has been working for quite a while and it looks to be nearly mid-day. I walk out of the Homestead, searching for Chuck. I see him, not too far from where I am. I make my way over to him, giving him a small hug and he laughs.

"Well, well, well, look who's finally awake." He chuckles.

"Why didn't you wake me up?"

"I figured after how exhausted you were yesterday, you could use some rest. Besides, Alby told me you had to rest today."

"But now I've missed breakfast!"

"And lunch." He reminds me.

"And lunch! What am I supposed to eat?" I raise my eyebrow at him. He laughs, taking my hand in his, pulling me towards the Kitchen.

"Well, good thing I am taking care of you today. I asked Frypan to save you some food." He smiles as we reach the Kitchen. "Hey Fry!" He calls. "Y/n is up!"

"Oh good!" The young chef's head pops up from out of nowhere. "I was wondering when you were going to show up for some food." He smiles, sliding a bowl of warm oatmeal over to me. I smile and take it graciously. Chuck and I walk over to a table and sit down, chatting as I eat. Once I eat some of my food, unable to take more than a couple of bites, I thank Chuck, telling him I have to grab something from the Homestead that I left. I make my way back but before I can enter, I stumble and an image flashes across my mind.

I am in a tank full of water. My lungs feel like they are going to burst at any moment. I can't breathe, I am trying to swim to the top of the tank to get some air but there is none. Suddenly, a face pops up in my blurry vision and the glass breaks. I collapse onto the floor and a young boy pulls me to his chest, asking if I was okay. I look up to see Newt. Only he is younger, maybe a year younger than he is now. He takes my hand, pulling me to my feet.

"Come on, we have to go before they realize." He tells me. I stand up and we run out of the room.

(This part is a little gross. Not too bad though, y/n is just sick)

I regain my balance, before leaning forward and vomiting. I still feel like I am drowning, like my lungs are filling up with water. I cough and throw up again. I cough a bit more but don't feel like throwing up anymore. I wipe my mouth and take a deep breath, the feeling of drowning completely gone. I compose myself and grab my necklace then make my way back to Chuck. I sit with him for a while, talking and laughing.

After a few hours, it starts to get late and I know dinner will be soon. I excuse myself so I can have a shower. Once I get out of the shower and am changed, I see a crowd of boys over by the door. What is going on? I wonder. I make my way over before realizing what time it is. Minho and Alby should be back by now. I pick up my pace when all the boys start yelling and see Minho and Alby. Although, it looks like Minho is carrying Alby. I am not going to make it before the door closes and neither will Minho. I push myself harder and the door starts shutting. I push my way to the front, trying to get there to help him, but the boys won't move. When I get to the front, I see that Minho won't make it. Just as the door is basically closed, I see a movement to my left. It takes me a moment for me to realize that it is Thomas and I move to stop him but I am too late. The door shuts on both of them and I am stuck in front of it, staring unbelieving at it. I look down at the ground for a moment, crossing my arms, almost like I am hugging myself for warmth, and all I can hear are my ears ringing and my heart pounding. Both of them, my best friend and my brother, stuck in the Maze at night. Nobody survives a night in the Maze but I have to believe they will or I will go insane. The ringing in my ears stop but the Glade is silent. By the sounds of it, all the boys are still staring at the door, daring it to open. I take a deep breath and look up at the sky, holding the tears back. I hear whispers behind me of the other Gladers, talking about how scary it is that I am so quiet. I haven't moved, haven't said a word. I hear them whisper that this silence is scarier than Alby's yelling or my anger. They all seem to be holding their breaths, waiting for me to crack. I hear soft footsteps behind me, moving closer and I instantly recognize them as Newt's. I hear another set of cautious footsteps; Chuck's. Then I hear Newt's voice, telling everyone to go get ready for dinner, to go clean up at their work stations and I hear multiple footsteps, heading away from me. Whether Newt did that for me or for himself, I am glad he did it.

"If you ever need me y/n, I am here for you. I am so so so so so sorry that I ever hurt you." I hear tears in his voice but I still don't move a muscle. I'm afraid that if I do, I will break down and there will be no building me back up. "I love you, y/n. I hope you can forgive me." I slowly close my eyes, full of anger.

If I had been in there with them, they wouldn't have gotten trapped! I can't help but feel like it is my fault that they are stuck in there. I hear Newt sigh behind me and I hear his soft, quiet footsteps grow quieter with each step. I keep standing there, not moving a muscle.

Eventually, I hear Chuck come up beside me.

"Hey, I brought you some food and something to drink, I thought you might want it." He says. I don't respond. How can I, if they aren't coming back and it's all because of me? Chuck seems to sense what I am thinking. "It's not your fault, you know. And I promise, they will come back, I can feel it." Chuck has always been so optimistic, thinking the good things about everything and believing they will happen instead of the bad stuff.

I stand there, in the same position I was when the door shut, all night. Chuck stayed for a while, talking, telling me that everything will be okay and they will make it back, trying to cheer me up and I am so thankful. It gave me a little hope, but not tons. Some of the other Gladers came up to me as well but my silence seemed to really scare them so they left. Eventually, Chuck left to go for bed and I stand there, staring at the door, daring it to open. I felt my hopes get up when I saw first light because that meant the door would be opening soon. I hear the other Gladers gather around, waiting in anticipation whether or not they survived the night. The door slowly opens and nobody is there. I feel my heart drop and multiple hands touch my shouder in a sympathetic way, in order to comfort me before disappearing again. The others sigh, almost as if they have been holding that breath all night. I feel my heart clench and I see Newt standing in front of me, saying something but I don't hear. He sadly smiles and walks away. I am so angry, at myself, at whoever put us here, at Newt, at everybody and everything. All the Gladers have disappeared from my view when I see something that makes my heart leap from my chest. Thomas and Minho, turning the corner, carrying Alby.

"Thomas! Minho! " I yell, running into the Maze to help carry Alby. I take him off their shoulders carrying him over my shoulder to give them a small break. Once inside, they get surrounded by the others, hugging them and congratulating them. I struggle to hold Alby and I ask what happened to him.

"He's been Stung." Minho says. Gally and another Glader, seeing how much I am struggling, take Alby's arms, putting them around their shoulders to help hold him up and take him to the Medjack hut. I make my way up to Minho and Thomas and punch them hard on the arm.

"Ow!" They cry in unison.

"Don't ever scare me like that again!" I cry, tears in my eyes. I hug them both at the same time. "I-I thought I l-lost you guys! I thought I'd never see you again!" I hold onto them tightly, afraid that they will be gone if I let go, but I eventually let go. "I love you guys!"

"I love you too." They say. Newt awkwardly comes up to us and I step out of his way so he can hug them. An image flashes across my mind and I lose my balance for a second but quickly compose myself. The boys look at me, concerned.

"Y/n, are you okay?" Thomas asks.

"I'm fine." I snap, turning on my heel quickly and walking towards the Kitchen. I grab some water and drink it.

The rest of the day, I sit with Thomas beside the door, as he recounts everything that happened in the Maze. Eventually, he had to leave for his hearing but I wasn't going to go. I sit, leaning my head against the wall in complete silence.