My first chapter of 2022. Thank you all so much for over 10K reads!
[TW: angst, signs of depressive episode, self-doubt, crying ]
After the incident that happened yesterday, I had yet to speak with my brother. Then again, I haven't heard him say a single kind thing about me nor to me since being at this school. Sometimes I feel like it would be better if Hagrid had never come found us if the letters never came. Even if we were still sharing a closet at the Dursleys, it would be better. When we were there, we at least talked to each other, and we saw each other every day.
Even though there is a pit in my stomach telling me not to leave my warm and safe bed, I know I have too though. Carter won't let me stay in bed, they will make sure I get up, even though they also like to sleep in, Carter will not let us be late for breakfast.
Once Carter dragged me to the Great Hall and back to the dorms for our books, she then drags me to out all our classes, the only one left is with Professor Snape. I am running on instinct; I have no clue what is going on around me. We are sitting in Potions; the only reason I am actually sure it is the right class is because I can slightly hear Snape's slow but loud speech. Eventually, I feel someone nudging me, and I snap out of my daze. I look at the person next to me and realise it is Draco. He looks concerned, and then he hints to look at Snape. When I turn my head, I see that Snape and all the other class is staring at me.
"Do you know the answer Mx. Potter?" the professor isn't as stern as always, in fact, there seems to also be a hint of worry behind his eyes. I shake my head no, I didn't even know the question, so how could I possibly know the answer. "Very well, I wish to speak with you after the class." I nod in response, feeling embarrassed I sink back into my chair hoping the class will fly by so the feeling of embarrassment will pass as soon as possible.
---time skip to after class---
As the rest of the class pack up their equipment and leave the room in a rush, I stay still, as if I think staying still will make me disappear. Snape saunters over to the desk that is placed in front of the one I am sitting at, and he takes a seat upon the table. I keep looking at my unopened book. I won't speak first; I won't apologise before he gives me a reason to. I think he knows I will not speak first because he sighs and looks at me.
"Y/N is everything ok? You were not paying attention to all lesson; this isn't normal behaviour for you. You are one of my best students." I look up at Snape and I feel my eyes burning, tears are welling in them. I shake my head but don't speak because I don't want to sound weak. "I heard slight things about what happened yesterday, do you want to tell me? You can trust me." This time I sigh, I know I can trust him.
"Some other Slytherins cornered me in the library and said things based on the ''pureness'' of my blood and about family and friends. I overthought last night and realised they were right, I don't deserve to be here at this school, I am not special. Even my own brother doesn't care about me anymore." Mid-sentence I break into full tears, I don't try to hide them, I don't care at this point. But when I finish the sentence Snape does something I never expected him to do, purely based on his reputation.
Snape moves towards me and wraps his arms around me in a tight and safe hug. I don't hug back; I try to focus my breathing because I am now heavily sobbing.
"Everything is going to be okay. But they are wrong, your blood status only determines who your parents are. You deserve to be at Hogwarts. Not to mention, you are the most promising Potion's student I have ever seen in my time at this school. And I know your twin does still care, he was the one to push the Slytherins off you when he found you, he stayed with you until you awoke." I am surprised Snape never seemed like the warm and comforting type. So, I take the moment where Snape is being kind and I return the hug.
Snape and I sit and chat until I have completely calmed down. He walks me to the Hall as it is now time for dinner. Before I enter, he stops me and speaks,
"If you ever need to speak my door is open, you are a promising young student, and I will not see you fail based on emotions you feel you cannot express because of your pride." I thank him for his help and walk into the hall and find a seat next to Carter and across from Draco.
I don't say anything I just grab some food and avoid eye contact with them both. I know I will have to talk to them both later because they care about me, and I was really off track from my normal self today. Whenever they tried to start mentioning my behaviour today, I tell them to stop and I will tell them later on, in private. They seem to finally understand that I do not want to talk just yet and will when I am ready.
If ever I had to look back on this day in the future and summarise it; it would be the day I realised I would always have a safe place and a father figure in Severus Snape.
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